The last few weeks has been hell. First mothers day I visited town now its Easter back there again. So anyway when so called family or friends hear i'm in town visiting they always come round to be nosy. For the most part they just make sly comments on my weight, not having a job me being a lazy soandso.
Those who know know what I do. I like to think I’m lucky that they have kept it to themselves. So I just leave the others to keep on at me with the ‘you are so lazy’ crap. Hoping that at some point they will get bored. But this time I felt like letting rip and just blurting out I’m a webcam model and a phone sex operator OK! Leave me the fuck alone. I do have a JOB!
I’m so sick of people looking down at me. Pissed that I feel the need to shut myself away when I visit town for fear of insults from so called friends and family.
The final straw came when I was out. I saw a relatives’ car pull into the car park of the place I was going. Hoping they didn’t see me I kept my head down crossed the road only for him to drive towards me if I haven’t moved fast enough he would of knocked me down. He laughed at this. I stuck my finger up at him in which he replied. ‘Thought you only raised your hand to put food in your mouth, I know you don’t like to move otherwise’.
You know part of me wished he did knock me over. Least then I wouldn’t have to hear his nasty comments anymore. Or the rest of them for that matter.
And breathe



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