I want to tell my mother what I do. She has lupus. If any of you deal with that sort of thing or have parents with the same you probably can relate. She gets sick every time she gets stressed, is a full time uni teacher, mother, etc. I once told her I was applying to an adult store and she had a total break down, was sick for a week or two, crying about how I couldn't do that.
I'm in financial straits. trying to get my shit together. SAHM. This works for me. I like it. I get calls from her all the time saying I saw x and x job opening, you should apply for this, your bf qualifies for this ( who is on unemp.) and I have to lie and say I applied, and say I desperately want x and x job, i have dreamed of this, I hope I get it. I so badly want to tell her about what I do, limit the risk of her finding it out from someone else, and so one. But I am so worried that I am going to make her terribly sick and stressed from the information - again, lupus, it hits her hard. Joints failing, nausea, vomiting, circulatory problems (loss of feeling in extremities) and such. I want to be honest but it feels like I either will make my sweet mother desperately ill or lie to her.
I truly do not know what to do and it nags at me. I want to be the open and honest daughter but I don't want to take away from her job and my siblings bc she gets so utterly sick from stress/finding me out.what to do?!



what to do?!
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