
Originally Posted by
ManyRoses
Sorry, but I categorically disagree with that! I mean, really?!?!?! The vast majority of girls who don't do couple shows don't involve their other half...
I absolutely HATE working when my SO is home, but luckily we have it worked out so I very rarely have to. We do also have an office/cam room, so I can just close the door and shut myself away. If he IS home, he ususally puts on the headset to play games online, or he might watch tv - because I am upstairs, he doesn't need headphones.
Even so - I still feel really uncomfortable with him around, and he is not a fan of it either! And it DOESN'T mean that I have anything to "hide", thank you very much! LOL. I don't like it because, like you, I don't feel like I can perform to my fullest ability - I'm pretty "method actor" when it comes to my shows (LOL), meaning that unless the customer is giving me specific verbal cues, I talk dirty the way that I actually talk dirty in bed. And there is something very...weird....about having my SO hear me say the same stuff to HIM as I do to customers. I just find that it blurs the line between my work life and our personal life, which is something that neither of us want!! I am a VERY different person from my on-cam alter-ego, and I want to keep it that way.
He also recognizes that this is my JOB, and that I need to put in the hours that I set myself, and that I don't get turned on 90% of the time. I am in the absolute opposite headspace that I want to be in when I fuck my man - thinking, working, focused, and in SALES mode. I am NOT horny. And I seriously doubt that it would make him horny watching me, seeing as over half of what I do is fetish stuff. I would actually be kind of disturbed if he got turned on when I am describing to someone how I would use them as a toilet slave, foot slave, or little sissy bitch!!
We DO talk about work, laugh about funny stories, talk about good nights or frustrating times, ideas for clips, etc etc. I'm not hiding my job, and its not like he doesn't like what I do or has a problem with it, I just would never have him sitting around while I work. (Not to mention - he kinda has better stuff to do with his life than hang out at my work for hours at a time!) When I work at the tattoo shop as a piercer, he doesn't come hang out at the counter, does he?
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