So last week my bf cheated on me with an old flame, in our own house, while I was upstairs sleeping. When I asked him about the marks on his neck as he came to bed he didn't remember anything because he was blackout drunk. Wonderful.
I feel like I've lost all my faith in people, in particular men. Work is definitely not helping. Every time I dance for some asshole wearing a wedding ring I want to punch him. I keep hiding in the bathroom and crying mid-shift. The only good thing is that I'm drinking less at work than I ever did -- partly because I tend to go on crying jags when I'm tipsy, partly because I don't want to be like the b/f and do something stupid.
I think I'm depressed. I've lost all my confidence, and all my interest in sex. I just sit in my room and stare. I used to be able to talk to the men at work easily, and now I can't approach anyone but my regulars. Even with them, it's exhausting just to be around them.
I know I should take time off, but I'm also losing a roommate at the end of the month and need to save money. I also have a BA scheduled (finally!) next month, and need to save up money to take that time off for recovery.
How can I hang in there and cope until the end of the month? I feel like I'm losing my mind.![]()



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Just smile and agree to almost everything. Look at them like robotic ATMs that they are(hey, we're "sex objects"), and your hustling is your "pin code" to access cash. Actually, all of us should always be like this at all times.



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