I am tired of being made to believe I am the unstable crazy girl.... My ex boyfriend always playing the know it all Dr. Phil role, Psycho analyzing how I ever got into stripping, pointing out how I punish myself and subconsciously sabotage relationships..... And then today on the phone with my step dad, him telling me how I need to leave his wife, my mother, alone because I am a toxic person who only brings drama.... I see them maybe twice a year and they know nothing about my life or problems..... I said something mean to my mom the other day, which I feel horrible about, so I called to apologize. Is it just me or does it seem like its so much easier for people to mentally throw us all into a crazy box, exagerrate our drama/issues/egocentric ism and just write it off as such, all because of stripping? I'm like, damn, I've brought zero drama to my family, in fact I go out of my way not to bother them with anything, yet he made me feel like some unwanted toxic parasite. I've called him maybe once this year. And my ex boyfriend, it was almost as if my stripper past was how he justified any conflict we have, and I know that's what he reminds himself of when he thinks back on our breakup, and it gives him cognitive dissonance. Like, she's the unstable emotional stripper, it couldn't have been anything I did. I honestly feel like I'm going crazy. I don't feel psychotic or totally unstable, but the more people point it out to me, I'm starting to question myself. Has anyone else dealt with this?




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