Okay, so I am finally going to audition in a week ! I am really nervous, but not TOO scared... I was practicing in the mirror and it helped me with my confidence honestly. knowing how I looked from someone elses perspective- even though it was my own haha
I have been practicing a lot. I have bruises on my knees the sizes of golf ballsEffing suckkkkkssss. it hurts so bad, but I know I have to push through the pain. i need to find new moves to practice that AREN'T on my knees lol. I don't have any experience on the pole yet. I havent even touched one, but the clubs I am going to- only one stage has a pole, so I think i can get away with not using it for my audtion
I am SUPER scared though haha. i am confident for sure... just HUGE butterflies. I literally get them just thinking about it LOL.
The club I am going to look at working at, has 1 stage rotation that is full nude... I think I am just going to have to get over being all nude and be OK with just one stage being nude. i am self conscious a little of my va ga ga lol but thats because I have a little bit thicker labia's and it makes me nervous lol. in my eyes, there is a standard looking "vagina" haha like the ones i see in porn haha
But yeah, so, i am nervous but super excited! I got my heels, they arent too bad walking in.
one BIG concern of mine is that i have asthma..... and while i was practicing i honestly did get out of breath a little. and kind of embarassing haha
plus i was thinking of working thursday/friday nights and possibly.... hmmm a sunday night or something ? i know bachelor parties and stuff go in fri/saturday nights and they don't pay as well sometimes. lol
OH, and i don't know how to "hustle" very well haha. oh well, it will all come in time...just need to get hired!! i hope i do!
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Effing suckkkkkssss. it hurts so bad, but I know I have to push through the pain. i need to find new moves to practice that AREN'T on my knees lol. I don't have any experience on the pole yet. I havent even touched one, but the clubs I am going to- only one stage has a pole, so I think i can get away with not using it for my audtion
just need to get hired!! i hope i do!
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