Sorry for the rambling background, but I'd really like some input to those who know where I'm coming from here.So, thanks in advance.
I've been dancing on/off for 8 years now and have been married for 5. I have a college degree, worked a day job for a while. Left that good-paying day job (out of necessity due to conflict w/territory & company car--long story) just before finding out I was preggers with my oldest. I went back to dancing when she was 6 months old and danced for almost 4 years. I don't believe in working full-time with a little one at home if dancing provides the income to keep us afloat working 3 days/wk especially considering the cost of daycare. All along I was looking for something a little more in-line w/my degree and professional experience. I started working part-time for a small business with what I thought was great potential and continued dancing 2 days/wk. We decided on baby #2, and I started working full-time at the 'day' job and quit dancing when I was 6 wks preggers . Well, my boss at said business basically left me with a lot of empty promises and became basically unbearable to work for (honestly myself and others in the office think she may be starting with dementia). I feel basically screwed over in many ways. So although the plan was for me to go back after maternity leave, I told her to go pound sand only in nicer terms. Now, my youngest baby is now 5 months, and we need my income soon before we'll be in the red financially. I decided I'd rather go back to dancing than work for the psycho-boss, lol. But, now the hubby acts like that's not an option?! Well, I don't want to pay over $1,000/mo to daycare for strangers to raise my baby, first of all. And, that's only if I could secure a 'day' job and honestly it'd have to pay over $50k to even be feasible. He never was fond of me dancing, but it wasn't an issue really. Now, somehow he's freaking at the idea. He's made comments to the effect that go ahead if I want to make a quick-buck as a whore!!!???? He's usually overdramatic, but WTF! I'm at a loss here, and really just feeling the need to rant somewhere. Oh, and at least part of the issue is we cannot tell his or my family what I'd actually do for a living. I was a "bartender" before at a bar no one would ever frequent. My family wouldn't speak to me if they knew.... I went the honest route and it's sad really that apparently I'm conditionally loved, but the way it is. His family knows I used to dance, but we left it at that....



So, thanks in advance.
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