
Originally Posted by
ManyRoses
Like others have said, I don't feel that it is healthy to get to a point where you HAVE to drink in order to work. Before I started in the industry, I had some great advice - don't drink at work for the first week, at least. You have to know that you CAN do it sober, or you will end up a drunk. And bear in mind, I am practically a functional alcoholic! (In a jokey way, obviously) I drink quite a lot, and have at least one glass of wine most days. By no means am I anti-booze! Sometimes I drink when I cam, sometimes I don't. I often find that it is counter-productive though - I get distracted and have too much "fun" - not enough money, and it doesn't train the boys properly. If you feel like you can't bring yourself to log on without getting drunk, this is DEFINITELY not the job for you.
I am also interested in the timeline to your story - you obviously have another source of income, as you have been able to log in for a few minutes and then not go back for nearly half a year. Why is it that you want to cam, as opposed to what you are doing now? If it is just because you feel like you can make waaaay more money, you may be wrong. Making "big bucks" takes a while to build up to, and if you find it that hard, I honestly would wonder if it is worth it. Ditto if you think that it is easy - clearly, it is going to be very difficult for you, at least for the first little while.
If you really want to give it another try, then the practical advice the others have given is great - try paid chat only sites, or sticking it out on SM for longer. MFC is definitely a very overwhelming site to start on!! Especially if you are not muting basics, and allowing everyone and anyone to PM you!! SM IS much calmer, but you may be better still on MGF or using paid only in AW. Spend time in other girls chat rooms - watch them. See what they say. Do some deep breathing before you get on cam - I like to do a 10min meditation, and then focus on centering myself as "Scarlett" - getting into character and visualizing an awesome day on cam. It just helps get me in the right frame of mind. Set yourself a small goal - sit on cam for 30 mins, and then build up from there.
Most importantly - mentally prepare yourself, and get ready to be STRONG. Don't think of it as though you are begging these guys to think that you are good enough - definitely don't put too much importance on the opinions or comments of these guys - as though they really impact your worth. You use the word "panic" a lot - if you don't have an anxiety disorder, then try logically thinking it through. What is the WORST that could happen? You clearly have another income stream, so you aren't going to be out on the street! What is the absolute worst case scenario of a total stranger on the internet rejecting you? What does his opinion matter? You aren't going to die, to be physically hurt, to lose your friends or your family....it's just some dude that chose not to whack off to you at that precise moment. Just repeat to yourself - It's not life or death. It's just porn.
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