I'm so ready for the weekend to be here. I want to sleep in.
I'm so ready for the weekend to be here. I want to sleep in.










I'm thinking today can be a chicken shawarma with garlic sauce day.





^ Yes it could with the right freaky people. Bartering services, lol.
I'm seriously considering getting my Bachelor's degree in Computer Science.





Easy. I work a vanilla job, in addition to "adult entertainment work". I don't plan on telling them until after I've earned it because my family mostly sucks and I have a lot of naysayers who like to try to put me down and bring up the fact that I've stripped, done porn, and cammed. I can't just say,"Hey, family I'm going back to school to earn my Bachelor's degree! Isn't that exciting?" without hearing some negative crap about,"Well, but you've done porn" or "Oh, but you stripped at ______. Strippers can get hired in that field?"





Better yet, just keep saying you work at a "dead end job" ….then post your graduation pictures to Facebook and let them find out indirectly that you completed a degree. Be like, LOL Oh yeah I was pretty busy, didn't have a chance to tell you I was in school! Lullllz
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Okay, I don't know how I feel about this: guy that stopped seeing me to get in a/nother relationship with an older woman that may be more established/normal than me and has children, even though he doesn't want any and hates children. He still is calling me pet names, checking on me/seeing if there's any thing I need and still offering to pay for a lot. I've have grown to love him and don't know how I feel about him and this change. How should I proceed with this person, while were not having sex? I kind of feel like he wants to keep me around as he's fantasy and ego booster.
Last edited by yaya_cash; 05-05-2019 at 02:21 PM.





Just so I have the facts:
1. He is in a relationship
2. He left a relationship with you
3. He offers to pay your bills
4. He is not asking for sex right now
If I have that right then
a. If he pays some bills he will probably only pay a few, and he will probably not be reliable in paying them
b. It might be in your interest to find a more worthy recipient for your love. Maybe move him to friend status?
c. He has taken a step back from you. You might benefit from stepping back from the relationship
Just my thoughts
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1. Yes, he is in another relationship with an older (more normal) woman, now.
2. And he did leave our relationship to be with another woman.
3. He wants to pay my bills and still does.
4. He has not been asking sex from me. And I wasn't getting sex from him; he was having sex with other people while we were together. And I don't think he will have sex with me because he's having sex with the older woman and she has told him he is trash in bed, which I disagree.
5. And I still have access to his bank account. And he wants/offered to lease out an apt and pay for all the many months, for me. And I had mentioned to him I want to move and distant myself with him once I found about him being with this other person.
And I find this weird, for a person that claims he is in a relatownship with another person and left to be with. How do you be friends with a person that seems to still treat you like you're in a relationship with or loves you while maybe loves this other woman?
Should I just play along...?
Last edited by yaya_cash; 05-08-2019 at 12:51 AM.





^ maybe start by giving him a few of those bills to pay ?
Sounds like he feels guilty.
Maybe let him help if he wants to?





If he wants to pay for things, that's great, but you might not want to depend on it, is what I'm saying. He may be wanting to set up a SD/SB relationship with you, but that depends on how steady the payments are, I'd say. As far as keeping him a friend, if there is give and take, and he is willing to help you now and again, why would that be bad?
My question is, if you get a new BF what does he do?
Where Am I? Missing NYC



Last edited by yaya_cash; 05-08-2019 at 12:51 AM.



^ I say distant yourself emotionally but still take him up on the offer of him financially supporting you. Shit if i was you i would be getting a condo that’s partially or already paid off, bills paid, new car and everything. I would so milk that shit.
On a side note where do you ladies be finding these generous men?! Like help a girl out lol. I swear if i was dying of hunger, all the men around me wouldnt even buy me a cheeseburger off the dollar menu. Lmao. But I guess that just how men behave around a ugly vs gorgeous woman. Sigh maybe in a next lifetime i will be beautiful.
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And I think he expects me to be emotionally attached while being receptive to names of endearment and I love you's; that is a need he still needs from me; even though he is with another person and claims he fell in love with or loves. I feel like he's committed to me without spending so much time with, having sex with or the title of girlfriend... Maybe?








Seriously, how do you be with someone like this, who claims he's in a relationship, now? And when I want to cuddle, hold hands, go places with, still? And he was doing this with me until I found out he was supposedly in a relationship with this person, I felt weird about doing that-- is that okay to cuddle, hold hands with, go places with him while he`s stated being in a relationship with this other woman? M...And he seems okay with doing, that...?
Last edited by yaya_cash; 05-06-2019 at 04:16 AM.





Short answer? No I wouldn't say it is ok, for you, unless this is what you are looking for. You know in South Korea it costs like $100/hr to "cuddle and hold hands" with a pretty young woman? I've never done it cause I'm not Korean and that adds some extra challenge but I have been tempted! Added bonus they also sing Karaoke with you.
If it makes you happy, that is your choice. But it doesn't sound like that.
I have suggestion - let's move this to the lounge or life support before mod of this thread suggests it. :-)
Where Am I? Missing NYC



Oh, he told me that he got another girlfriend because he was mad, at me. (So it seems he is trying to imitate us in this other relationship.) And I need to be around him sometimes because he gives me some structure; and I need routine, support while not having much beside him And a little from my mother and people I'm buying product/services from--- Ok, about done with thread.
Last edited by yaya_cash; 05-07-2019 at 02:44 PM.
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