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    Quote Originally Posted by Incantatious View Post
    Ohh thank you so, so much Sarah! My camming career so far has been very erratic, but that is likely largely due to external influences and issues rather than just the sites themselves. There's always usually a reason for why these things happen. I have blamed my net and my lack of consistency for the most part. I need to move house again so I'm in a place where BT Infinity (super-fast fibre optic broadband) is enabled, otherwise I am stuck with low upload speed because I cannot change my contract.

    I have started to use that I ever made it to $100 per hour as a confidence boost in itself rather than a means of putting myself down or thinking "Well fuck! I really went from hero to zero didn't I?" I comfort myself by thinking about how my net has never been above 1 mbps in my whole camming career - maybe I can excel even $100 per hour one day when living circumstances etc are all better! After all, it's always possible for everyone to make positive alterations to their well-being and living circumstances, and a lovely thing about this job is that generally the better those two things get, the more likely you are to see those positive changes reflect in earnings. Like when girls change their rooms up, tidy up the composition of their stream, it can make a lot of difference.

    My god, you girls are good to me. I feel enriched to have your care; and I'm still here for if ever you need mine. <3
    I just wanted to add... try not to get stuck in the "waiting game", I find that it can REALLY damper your mood and how you feel over all. What I mean is, you are waiting to be able to move into a better place with faster internet, so try really hard to not get stuck just putting things in life on hold and waiting, waiting, waiting. I struggle with this SO MUCH. I find that I spend so much of my time WAITING for things, rather than living RIGHT NOW. It's hard to break the cycle once it gets going, but it's so worth it. I learned about this and realized just how much waiting I do after I read The Power of Now. Maybe you should check it out?

    I'm currently waiting for my lease to be up in this house so we can move into a bigger and nicer house in my kids school zone. When we moved here we were really down on our luck, so it's in a not so great neighbor hood and the place is big enough but still feels small considering what I'm used to living in. The school my kids were supposed to go to has AWFUL ratings, they are currently in probation status with the state, so luckily we were able to transfer them to a nicer school in the neighbor hood we really want to be in. So now that things are going well for us, I'm just waiting waiting waiting for this stupid lease to be up. 6 more months. I keep telling myself that, 6 more months then it will be great!!! I find myself putting things off or not doing things I normally would because I'm so busy WAITING for what I want to happen.

    I'm not trying to thread jack, just trying to illustrate that you are definitely not alone in your situation be it what you are earning, how you are feeling, or how you are living. Try to get out of the waiting cycle and see if that helps some too!
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    Oh wow Sarah you are completely right! I play the waiting game a LOT!! I'll definitely check the book out as it sounds like the kind of thing I should read. I am glad you got your kids in a better School! <3

    Must live in the nowww! Welcome to my post-it note wall collection of motivational quotes, hehe! XD




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    ^^ The entire audiobook is up on Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6JCgAKCtIzE

    I HIGHLY recommend it!!

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    Quote Originally Posted by Smurfette View Post
    ^^ The entire audiobook is up on Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6JCgAKCtIzE

    I HIGHLY recommend it!!
    NICE! I bought the audio book because I felt that listening it was a lot more effective than reading it. That's great that it's on youtube for free!
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    Remember English is not Fridays first language. I think she was trying to be encouraging in her own way.

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    Quote Originally Posted by LAChloe View Post
    Remember English is not Fridays first language. I think she was trying to be encouraging in her own way.
    I think also, and most importantly, its easier to misinterpret what someone else is saying when english isn't your first language.

    Huuuuuge difference between "I'm happy making like $7/hour on cam!" and "I have medical issues so I cannot put in the 20, 30, 40, 50 hours a week I should be in order to earn good money, but I still make a decent hourly $$$." I think we would all agree that #1 will kill the industry, but #2 is a lot of people's situation with camming.

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    Quote Originally Posted by LAChloe View Post
    Remember English is not Fridays first language. I think she was trying to be encouraging in her own way.
    And she was drunk..... haha Love you Fridays <3
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    Yeah, I think Fridays was just trying to be encouraging in a 'tough love' kind of way... that's how I interpreted it.

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    Quote Originally Posted by LAChloe View Post
    Remember English is not Fridays first language. I think she was trying to be encouraging in her own way.
    It isn't? Where the hell have I been? Wow, I somehow manage to miss all the important stuff.

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    Fridays is very known for her attitude of being very $$$$-focused, very "aim for the top! Accept nothing less!", very motivational and never as straight talking than when you catch her talking about earnings and rates above all things, which leads me to believe that, language-wise, nothing really got misinterpreted about her posts in this thread. However, I can totally appreciate that Fridays was trying to help me in her own way, (maybe the way that best works for her?) and I don't think it's likely that deliberately hurting me was her plan.

    I admit I was torn up about her posts though, because I've always been very open about how much I like, admire, and look up to her. It felt so horrible to have my career idol suddenly start 'cracking the whip' on me so to speak, right at the very point in my life when I'm finding it hard to do so much as get out of bed in the morning let alone get on cam.

    Different strokes for different folks though. <3 No hard feelings!




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    I feel you here. Completely. I don't make the stellar hourly wage that most cam models do. I work on a site that isn't the best one but it works for me because of what I am able to accomplish and you know what? That's fantastic with me too.

    I started camming because of a pain disorder. Every job I had before then I was either fired or treated so badly I left or just couldn't physically handle it. I also have depression and severe anxiety. At least 2-3 days out of every week I'm not doing so great. Camming was my answer and I love that I'm my boss and my earnings are dependent on the effort I put in (well, sometimes...sometimes my site has shit for traffic).

    I get where you are coming from. I'm okay with my $25/hr wage PT. Camming has saved me. I was homeless at two points in my life and finally my creativity and personality has paid off in an unconventional way that is working for me and I think that's what you are saying. Do I bust my ass at times? Absolutely. But when I'm unable to, I can still make something which is better than all the years that I made absolutely nothing and fell into a very dark place.

    If it works for you and you are happy with it, that's all that matters.

    Quote Originally Posted by Incantatious View Post
    I have fallen on some hard times in my life recently which mean that I spend a great deal of time depressed, anxious, worried, and bed-bound. There's a lot of pressure on me right now, and I am struggling to cope with the weight of what this means for me. I cannot cam long hours. I have bad quality internet. And I struggle keeping my act up. All of this, and I would rather keep this job than anything else.

    Why? Because I work a job that still supports me. And it supports me for working a couple of hours every night I have it in me to work.

    Any time I feel I can work (which is not that long and not that often), it rewards me hugely for what I do put it.

    It doesn't shout at me when I don't get up at a certain time. It doesn't threaten me when I say I can't do Thursday, or Friday, or Saturday... It doesn't tell me anything is over-due. It doesn't make fun of me. If my clients make fun of me, I am still in control. I still have the biggest power of action.

    Any other job, I would be fired by now. I could be mocked, made fun of, gossiped about, teased, or discriminated against for the way I am, for the things that hurt me, for having a life (like lives generally are) complicated by relationships, circumstances, difficulties, grievances, mistakes and problems.

    When I put my back into it, and I work so hard, that effort keeps me sufficient and stable and comfortable, for months on end. Right now I feel like I am in the gutter where my life is concerned. I am finding things so hard. But all the same, I know that when I get away from where I am, this job will keep me safe.
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    Compassion and empathy is not a language, it's a human feeling. And what makes a good human being is KNOWING when to mind your own business and keeping your mouth close. In this case, step away from the keyboard.


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    Warning! Warning! Big-ass post ahead because apparently taking a weekend off means that I miss EVERYTHING!

    First off....GIANT BEAR HUGS FOR YOU INCANTATIOUS!! I know what it is like - I have had my issues with depression in the past as well, and camming can be a godsend at times.

    The whole "wage comparison" thing blows my mind occasionally - yes, you may be making less than minimum wage in your bad patch - but you wouldn't be ABLE to have a minimum wage job with severe depression (at least, I never could.). When you can't get up in the morning, can't make yourself get out of bed, or shower, or anything....a vanilla minimum wage job just isn't an option. And camming can be the one thing that keeps you afloat.

    I have recently been having conversations with a friend of mine who is an escort out of a studio-style place - and we have been chatting about the differences in our work. She makes more money than I do on a per hour basis - although, not by a crazy amount, I realized. Working a 6 hours shift, she probably makes around $600....and a lot of cam girls make that, although I would probably be closer to $400 (not including extra tributes, gifts, phone sex or the sales from clips of recorded shows). She sees it as better because she doesn't have to work regular hours, she just does a shift or two a week, doesn't worry about regulars, and because she knows how hard I have worked over the past year. For her, being able to walk in and make $600 on a first shift makes it "better" because she knew how frustrating it was for me to only be making $20 an hour when I first started. But for me, being able to know that now I have something that will travel with me everywhere, that will continue to rise in profitability, that is dependent on NO ONE but myself, that is not tied to a physical location - well, that makes it "better".

    And even if I was making a comparable wage to a vanilla job - not just a minimum wage job, but a fairly average, mid-range job - say in the 40-50K a year range - I would STILL prefer this one. It's a common fallacy when considering the sex industry to assume that it isn't "worth it" if you aren't pulling in hella money easily, every single day. And that just isn't true.

    Melonie makes some interesting points, but they are based on the idea that you are definitely going to lose future employment...yet she is a case in point of a sex worker who earned enough to simply retire! With camming, many women work well into their 50s with no loss of earnings, so a lot of the time, the loss of a vanilla job simply doesn't matter. And even for those women that DO want to move into another industry, the majority will not be affected - you can do all kinds of other things after working in the industry. Not everything, but it's not as if you are removing yourself from all vanilla work for life.

    At the end of the day - whatever supports you and makes you happy, honey. I hope that you can get through this and back to earning all the money! xxx
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    This! A lot of time girls tend to forget that you're not gonna bank every single day. One day you could make $500 or whatever and next day $50. It's great to make good money but please remember to not put your whole being, self-worth and self-esteem solely base on how much you make. You are still the same person! If you're feeling empty, lonely and depressed, there's no amount of moment that can fix that!

    Quote Originally Posted by ManyRoses View Post
    And even if I was making a comparable wage to a vanilla job - not just a minimum wage job, but a fairly average, mid-range job - say in the 40-50K a year range - I would STILL prefer this one. It's a common fallacy when considering the sex industry to assume that it isn't "worth it" if you aren't pulling in hella money easily, every single day. And that just isn't true.


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    Quote Originally Posted by Marina Starr View Post
    Compassion and empathy is not a language, it's a human feeling. And what makes a good human being is KNOWING when to mind your own business and keeping your mouth close. In this case, step away from the keyboard.
    Agreed.

    I'm really surprised at the "Oh fridays, it's okay <3<3."

    Sorry. I've been holding my tongue (ya'll know me, lol) but then I was like O.o when the switch was flipped.

    I respect her, she's made some good contributions to this board and is an extremely hard-worker.

    But what was said was extremely rude. She basically said, "I don't care how you're feeling. Get over it. Understand?" Zero compassion. And her response of a comment of her being mean, "well the truth is mean. whatever." / "same thing i would have told her sober." Is someone who fully understands what she wrote and has zero guilt of it. Fridays posts a lot on this board, I think she's very smart and we all talk a lot of back and forth with her, and by looking at her thousands of thanks. We all can understand and agree with a lot of what she posts too.

    I'm not seeing a language barrier here. That is crap.

    Incantatious deserves an apology. Why the hell are we trying sweep that under the rug?

    All of us have been in a rough spot - this job has been a lifesaver for some of us. I for one, am extremely thankful for it. When I fall in a dark place/get sick, I can still hold my head out of the water financially. If I was at a normal 9-5 job I would be fired, and then that would put me on what? Disability? This job allows us to still take care of ourselves, we're still independent and then we come back strong as ever and are back to making serious big money. No other job allows us the flexibility, the earning potential and the forgiveness of it. I feel blessed and genuinely love this job, at both my high and low points.








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    I wasn't surprised by the "Oh fridays, it's okay <3<3." and I didn't buy the 'English wasn't her first language' crap either. Fridays posts weren't directed at me but it just was hard to read. We're all walking wounded in some ways but we can all be part of the solution by not adding salt to someone else's wound.

    Quote Originally Posted by HaydenBlue View Post
    Agreed.

    I'm really surprised at the "Oh fridays, it's okay <3<3."

    Sorry. I've been holding my tongue (ya'll know me, lol) but then I was like O.o when the switch was flipped.

    I respect her, she's made some good contributions to this board and is an extremely hard-worker.

    But what was said was extremely rude. She basically said, "I don't care how you're feeling. Get over it. Understand?" Zero compassion. And her response of a comment of her being mean, "well the truth is mean. whatever." / "same thing i would have told her sober." Is someone who fully understands what she wrote and has zero guilt of it. Fridays posts a lot on this board, I think she's very smart and we all talk a lot of back and forth with her, and by looking at her thousands of thanks. We all can understand and agree with a lot of what she posts too.

    I'm not seeing a language barrier here. That is crap.

    Incantatious deserves an apology. Why the hell are we trying sweep that under the rug?

    All of us have been in a rough spot - this job has been a lifesaver for some of us. I for one, am extremely thankful for it. When I fall in a dark place/get sick, I can still hold my head out of the water financially. If I was at a normal 9-5 job I would be fired, and then that would put me on what? Disability? This job allows us to still take care of ourselves, we're still independent and then we come back strong as ever and are back to making serious big money. No other job allows us the flexibility, the earning potential and the forgiveness of it. I feel blessed and genuinely love this job, at both my high and low points.

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    I seriously cannot get over how much warmth, compassion and support you ladies have shown me the past few days off the back of this thread... Truly, I cannot. I just thank my heart out to you all (as ever) <3 I don't know what the Hell I would do without you.

    I am trying to type "quietly" right now because my partner is asleep next to me, and I'm still up on my laptop trying to figure out what to do. I am scared because I tried to cam tonight, and I fucked it so, so badly. I got told to "stop begging" on MFC, to which I starting flipping my room off.. (I know, right? Classy? I am doing pretty much everything I used to hate seeing camgirls do myself (that is, the girls who actually were fucking pissed off rather than being dom, etc!)) Then I went to do a GOLD show on SM - I had a nice room going, but not enough to get me half of my $100 target. 2nd try = still no dice. 3rd try = I notice I have a bigger room of guys, so I raise my target up, LOWER the buy-in price as an incentive, and RAISE the time for how long the show goes on for... and had one good reg of mine tell me "Some day I'll pay you to understand this business"... It felt like someone had just dragged my heart down to the pit of my stomach; (it didn't help that that comment was sandwiched between a "tits out now bb" and a "u wet?" - what a combination...) I unplugged my cam and cried for about half an hour. That was the night I meant to make $$$.

    For the past 3 hours I've been reading this forum trying to pep myself up. I know my hustle has gone down the drain, as it has been declining since I moved out to this horrible place and all this shit in my life just starting happening. It reflects in my earnings well enough for me to see the pattern. For me to move out of this place, I set myself a bracket of £3000 GBP as a safety measure. That is enough for rent for a couple months, enough to cushion the blow of any gap that may occur in setting up fibre optic broadband (could take a few weeks) for a new apartment, enough to buy basic supplies, enough for a couch and a bed, and anything else we may find we need when we get there. I currently have £1000 GBP saved, and about £310 to live on this week. For the longest time I've just been holding that 1k like my life depends on it, and saying "still not enough..." It's like I can't help it; even when I sleep I get dreams about visiting the atm machine and checking my bank balance hoping I have enough to get out of this pit and start my new life.

    My contract for this place ends in February. I wanted to move out sooner because I am finding it so hard here, but at this rate I can't afford to move again. And then of course there is Christmas... I've no idea how I can buy things for people at a time like this. I think it is time I started watching the top row girls on SM again. I remember the days when I just used to spend hours and hours learning from them and wanting to be like them... You know when you tell newcomers to this business about "thick skin"? Mine has pretty much turned to the consistency of ash. All it takes are about 10 mins of no action (not enough tippers, no privates), and some jerk to say something to me that could just make me lose heart and want to log off and start figuring out plan B like my days are numbered and even this is much, much too hard for me.

    The last thing I can blame right now, is myself, however stupid that might sound... It is because I know how hard I am trying despite failing so hard. Even so, I know when I talk about how erratically I've been behaving on cam it must just seem like I'm screwing around even, but that I even managed to get on cam at all is an achievement for me. I have even considered getting myself onto some counselling program again or getting my doc to prescribe me something to stop me from just fading back into a depressive oblivion like before I found this job. I can't even say how much I don't want that though. It takes such balls just to work these days.

    I still don't want to fuck up my business as a camgirl... I don't want people to equate fits; middle fingers; insults; come-backs upon come-backs; me turning my cam to my wall so they can't see me cry, with my cam-name / online presence. (Lol, maybe I wouldn't mind if I'd have actually marketed myself like that, but how I have marketed myself is VERY different to that persona.) So I have figured out that I will dedicate my time to clip sites. I have found the C4S threads in the verified section so inspirational, and the monthly challenges truly solid, motivational reading. The notion of handling clients in live time is too much for me right now, and it would be unprofessional of me to tell myself to just DO it - just get online, no excuses, no fucking around - treat myself like I just don't get that it breaks me right now? Only for me to crash and burn like I did tonight and potentially taint an otherwise great reputation as a 5-star Streamate model? And all of this is not me saying that camming isn't for me! This apartment, the people I am living with, the mess I am in right now which has all led to this isn't for me - I am not myself right now.

    I am so sorry if this post seems hideously self-indulgent (I just had a spike of paranoia about that), but as loads of you likely feel this way too, I don't have anyone else to talk to about any of this who would understand this, and I desperately need some way of articulating my thought-process to save my mind from overloading and to avoid me waking up in the morning like "Can't cam. WTF do I do today to make money?" Clips it is. I feel ready to take it on - I have comfort food, bubble gum, a toilet, wet wipes, and a bedroom messy enough to film a whole hours worth of naked bedroom cleaning... Hell, I'll even do a version where I fucking reverse and speed up that shit so it looks like I'm a crazy bitch making her room untidy on purpose... If I feel super-extra-mega strong, know my hustle, exactly how I'm going to act right down to how to handle wtf will happen if a GS countdown is nearly at half-way in tips, and know that I won't melt if some idiot puts me down, THEN I will get on cam...

    As I said before, if I get on cam in the mind-set I was earlier, where I pay my feelings little to NO compassion, it can cause harm and bring my career down. I have made my back-up plan, and I now have something new to look forward to tomorrow. And fuck, for the first time in a long time, I am actually feeling a little excited, rather than scared. (I've been at this post for a good couple of hours now... fucking... wow..) I want to film at least 10 clips for tomorrow (the start of my actual C4S store). That is the goal for the day. And I won't expect much at first, but I know I will be able to keep going at this one - keep filming, keep editing, keep posting those videos... because it won't be like camming where I am live and waiting as long as I have been, sometimes only to be told in some way, how bad I am doing.

    I know I'm a good camgirl. Given a stable home life, given good internet, given no background noise from the other people I am living with, given I live with people who respect what I do and don't make crude jokes about it like it's some bullshit silly joke, given I trust those I live with aren't going to case me or my partner any harm, given I have some fucking space to just be... I am not a good camgirl, I'm excellent. And I need to appreciate myself enough to cut myself slack, and know when I should give [cam-name] a little bit of a rest and dedicate my time to something that doesn't reduce me to a half-assed version of a performer who can make damn good bank. I'm not giving up. I'm reserving my strength so that I can bust Streamate in it's cash-filled balls when I come back.

    If you have just signed off camming for the night, or if you are camming tonight, tomorrow, this evening, whenever... please feel like a BOSS for doing so. You fucking goddesses. <3





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    Quote Originally Posted by HaydenBlue View Post
    I'm really surprised at the "Oh fridays, it's okay <3<3."

    Sorry. I've been holding my tongue (ya'll know me, lol) but then I was like O.o when the switch was flipped.

    I respect her, she's made some good contributions to this board and is an extremely hard-worker.

    But what was said was extremely rude. She basically said, "I don't care how you're feeling. Get over it. Understand?" Zero compassion. And her response of a comment of her being mean, "well the truth is mean. whatever." / "same thing i would have told her sober." Is someone who fully understands what she wrote and has zero guilt of it.
    Agreed. Brain chemistry is a bitch. When I fall down the spirial myself it isn't like I sit and think, "Hey, you know what would be awesome? If I was my own worse enemy today and decide to have crippling depression because hey....I could work if I *really* wanted too but this whole mental illness thing is just an excuse to be lazy."

    People who don't suffer from anxiety/depression have no idea how fucking lucky they are. To them, we just need to get off our ass and do it. Its kind of hard to get motivated to 'make that money' and get on cam when you are having serious thoughts of just stepping out into traffic so you don't have to deal with having to waking up again tomorrow morning.
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    Incantatious - what a heartfelt post! HUG!

    I am so sorry to hear that you had such a crappy night - and I think that you made the right decision. Usually, I would be encouraging you to power on through, just point the cam at your boobs, etc etc, but I really felt it coming through your words - sometimes you just need a break! Don't beat yourself up about it, or assume that all nights are going to be like that...

    I think that it is a GREAT idea for you to look at other income streams while you are avoiding the free-chat-demons - there are amazing ideas in the "camming through burn out" thread. Pimp all hell out of that cammodels.com link, film like there is no tomorrow, maybe write some erotica? And pimp hell out of indy stuff!! Get listed, make yourself available for skype, work that non-free-chat option. Just keep the money coming in in other ways.

    I am also a HUGE fan of visualisation and meditation (I nearly wrote "masturbation"...you know you are a cam girl when...LOL) as everyone on here knows!!! If you think that your skin is thinning...well, sit for 10 mins a day and visualize it getting thicker! Visualise your cam outfit turning into freaking ARMOR and insults just bounding off it. Visulalize yourself coated in teflon, and nasty people sliding straight off you. Meditate before AND after you cam - focus on negativity leaving you, energy coming to you, focus and happiness coming to you...and then visualize your best day on cam. Don't make it ridiculous (because you want your own brain to believe you!) but think about the best days that you actually HAVE had on cam - picture them in great detail!

    And take whatever breaks you need - film clips that crack you up - camp it up so that you feel like you are in a bad 70s porno. Make the job fun, and make it so that you associate that work with fun, and not with feeling down and defeated.

    You can absolutely get that old cam persona back! xxx
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    uuuummm ::raises hand timidly:: I just wanted to clarify that when I posted the group hug photo,it wasn't meant as "yay,lets act like everything is all better and brush offensive comments under the rug!hugs!kitties!rainbows,butterflies and camgirl harmony!" I actually posted it for 2 reasons- one being that I wanted to support everyone that had just posted to Incantatious supporting/loving her and telling of their own struggles and the second being that I wanted to put in a quick smile/laugh break there.ya know,when everything gets too serious,its always good to have someone say/post something cute and funny to make everyone smile for a quick sec before the fighting/seriousness resumes.So if I misled anyone,I apologize for being so vague.

    I so hope you can get to a better place soon Incantatious,I know how it feels to have absolutely no strength to get out of bed.And its one of the worst feelings in the world.But concentrating on that feeling can exacerbate it tremendously,so Im glad to see you coming up with your back up plan and excited about your clips,it shows you still have will power,motivation,and the strength to carry on regardless,youre just changing up your game a bit (and I sooo feel you there,im hitting my store HARD tonight and tmrw,and staying on top of it from now on) I know you can do it, youre a CAM-BEAST,doesnt make a difference whether its in front of a live audience or a fictional recorded one,its in your hand lady!! And visualization/meditation/affirmations! they really do work! Two thumbs up for what M.R. said! the main thing to remember is just...BELIEVE.when doubt/negativity starts to creep into visualizations,it can bring them down or make them much much harder to work.Read or watch The Secret and The Power of Now,The God Formula etc Anything you can about the Law of Attraction,theres some really interesting scientific proof/facts behind it,that has been gathered for QUITE a long time!
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    i am extremely happy too. i am a full time student and doing this part time i earn more than average wages here. f the rest.

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    More hugs to Incanatious, going thru a rough time myself, it sucks. I hope it gets much better for you hun!


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    I find this thread to be extremely brave and heartfelt. I want to say thank you. "Thank you." You dear lady, have courage and heart. I admire you.

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    Thank you, my dear ladies. And I hope with all my heart that things improve for all of you going through this too.




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