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Bb, you are already so much stronger than you're giving yourself credit for -- You care so much about your baby that you are going to school and trying to provide a good life for your child! That is strength alone and it comes from love. So even though you're depressed now, just think, this too shall pass! You have to stop panicking and take it one task, one minute, one hour, one day at a time! You have a great resource at your hands -- here you have support! You ARE beautiful and you love your child -- so many parents out there just don't care, and it seems like even your mom is having difficulties with that. You are strong enough to do this and there are so many women here that can inspire you! Soon enough you will be posting like that other chica did about how you made it!! You can do this, I believe in you. Good luck bb!! <3
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There are no gods, babe. It's all YOU. You are the difference between kicking ass and not kicking ass. You can do it. The strength, what you call "god"? it's in you. It's right there. You have strength. You have drive. You're awesome. Now, go kick some ass..and when you're done, don't thank God. Don't give someone/something else credit for YOUR work. Thank yourself.
I believe that there is a cam Goddess, in that you become her each and every time you let her out! I wish you and your baby the best. Please also consider talking to a professional if you need to, I know it helped me out of my own hole. You are strong by pushing through each day. Take it a tiny bit at a time. I'm sure you'll do amazing.
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*SUMMONS CAM GODS* PLUS YOU HAVE US.
Look girly YOU are early 20's..You have your whole life ahead of you. 20s are the time to grow and really find the person that you are including a great single mom. This is NOT a easy job. Being a single parent myself, I had her very young as well, when I turned 25 I thought my world was crashing. Full Time student pulling Part Time hours working full time job (a vanilla one for a while until it was time to sign up for the govt gravy train) I did get help for a few months and decided it was time to hang up the vanilla personality, go back into my world. I did stop school for a while (Art/Photojournalism Major) and focused on my hustle.
When she was in K school i started working in a salon again only to make 30k a year plus tips, working forty hours a week, still have the kidand going home to crash when she did bc I was tired. Nothing accomplished AGAIN!
That was my routine during her elementary school years.
I did go back to school and then I picked up camming in the evening after she went to bed. My routine was take her to school, I get to school, salon by 11 am and home by 9pm. I turned on my cam 10pm. I was so exhausted and felt "worthless" when reality is "exhaustion". I stopped the salon after a few months of camming. Was able to finish everything I wanted. I still take courses for random fun. When I switched to full time camming I made a promise I would cam everyday I would normally work. i have stuck to that. I feel "off track" when I mess up my cam schedule.
Many many nights I cried. I felt worthless. No family support, friends that where still single or married or married with kids seemed very distance bc reality is life of a single mom/dad is tiresome on our bodies, when our bodies are tired it effects our brain and that is where we start feeling "off track" ..Tired so we don't want to do much, feel lazy if we sleep and can only focus on one thing..What we don't have. (everyone in life will go through this)
Fast forward a few years. I have stuck to my schedule. I am doing great. We want for nothing when we started out with nothing. (Did I mention the x boyfriend wiped out my home of furniture, clothes, bras, panties, art work , FOOD! and we moved to this place bc of his income DEFINITELY not mine at the time) I have managed to stay comfy (now) in the home we moved in together. I refurnished everything. I worked unmercifully for hours, some days making 10 bucks (hate you PRIVATECAMZ) My home is in order. I now have teen *WARNING THEY DO NOT GET CHEAPER* with that said, well that is all that need to be said about teens. This year I bought my second brand new car.
I have all this from hard work, determination and the help of a little one looking up at me. I cant let her see me fail, her mother is not a failure..it just took time and patience with a lot of tears. Girl, that is just the way the boat rocks. It is hard, it is so damn hard we think its easy.
I cant imagine living with my mom bc she is bat shit crazy. Sounds as if your mom (just my opinion) is tired. That is the excuse my mom always used w her non working ass but could go to every church function known to man. If they said "JESUS" is making a porn, she would drive miles bc "God told her to" and when she gets there its not JESUS its jesusbut she would make time for him and help him guide his way into eternal freedom once again bc "god told her to" but that woman would not lift a finger to help me. My family wanted me to fail. They made bets. They made fucking bets that I would not be able to raise a child. When I mentioned school I was laughed at and told "but you have a kid, when do you have time?" Motherfucker I will show you when I have time. I love my mom but I seriously have a deep hate for her as well.
When I was in school my ONLY support was "Chris", he was my adviser. He advised me to tell everyone to FUCK OFF and to take my time. School is very important. Sometimes I had to drop a class or two. Some days I didn't show up, he would get word and call me, I shut off the phone. He spent YEARS advising me. Chris knew what I did, he was/is in the Arts as well. He popped in my chat room one day as "adviserphilly" I knew it was him. ( he is gay so he wasn't perving, he was there to hunt me down)
^^ People like that is what people like us NEED. A PUSH. He was my angel.
Girl if you need a push..give a holla! YELL! WE ARE HERE FOR YOU! WE UNDERSTAND! THE CAM GODS WILL RAIN ON YOU and the CAM GIRLS WILL PUSH YOU. Never be scared to come to most of us for support.
I would not go back to my twenties to save my life, I learned a lot now that I look back. We went through hell and back. We where almost homeless. I hate my twenties but love them bc I do know I do Have the strength to do it. I grew up with my kid, my kid grew up with me. She may know A LOT more than he average teen but she is not dumb instead she is aware. Im glad she saw me struggle. We have goals for her bc we learned from my mistakes. I don't mind she remembers the past bc it shows her it can be done.
I want you to remember that you are still n your twenties. Most people in their 20s are not high powered CEOs or own their own business, they don't drive luxury cars ( well, some do) they don't have NICE homes, most have a roommate situation, a shitty car and a shitty job. Most HUMANS do not start seeing success in their life until late 20s early 30s and later... BC THEY HAVE TO LIVE LIFE FIRST.
Make yourself a plan, a schedule. Stick to it best you can. Your child is your number one priority. Put everything/everyone else behind you (unless they are helpful) let all the dead strings go, they eventually fall off so do not waste time on them. There is more hard work, blood sweat and tears in your future (im just being honest) The more I have the harder I have to work.
I just wrote another fucking novel in CC.. sorry, just trying to get the point across. YOU CAN DO IT. WE ARE HERE. WE LOVE YOU.



^^ Preach sister girl! Very motivational...
We can all be your angels, bb. I know the girls here have helped me in SO many ways, from staying motivated, to learning how to earn more, and even giving me advice on personal issues of mine. I hate to say it but if you're looking for an amazing group of women who know what you're going through, you couldn't have come to a better place.



Tempting angel that was a beautiful post! And cam girl I do believe in angels you just have ask them to help you and they will![]()





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I remember my 20s feeling like ...uuuhggg "everyone else seems to have a perfect life, why not me?"
Life still is not perfect for me and neither is joeblow next door fucking sallysue.
Im not a good writer so my posts are hard to read sometimes. That is why I hate writing "novels" esp in CC. I dont really bother to edit bc I will fuck it up more.





Awwe I feel so bad for you (you need a big HUG).. I know right where you stand.. but for me I didn't even have a MOTHER.. or even an opportunity to cam.. When i was your age i was toting around a soon to be 5 yr old, homeless, working a shit telemarketing job.. Asking anyone I could if i could stay for just one nite.. NOT very many people helped me. So mostly, I scrimped together what money I could every nite for a seedy motel room so I didn't have to sleep in the car. That was the only thing I did have. I remained homeless for 14 months.. But I did it and I made it.. if you ever need any advice or anything private message me.. I would be glad to help you out with this cam stuff.. I have been doing it for 10 yrs now. Raised 2 kids, never got married, own my own house.. so you can do it!!... Just take it one day at a time.. don't think about the destination. Just today, Make today as good as you can make it and try anew tommorrow.
Bless you
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In fact, I am 40 now and throughout the last 20 yrs and NOW.. there is no one to help me really.. And it's scary all the time for me.. I have no one to turn to STILL.. I get stressed and anxious.. because If i really screw up at any time i have no where to turn to.
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