Is this a common thing that girls feel? Or am I just overly paranoid?
I use to be a really bad alcoholic that would drink up to a bottle at work. I'm not sure why I got into the habit because I have a solid track record of making great $$$ sober so during the middle of last year, I quit cold turkey. Now about 95% of my days I work stone cold sober.
I have days where I slip up if I'm doing several hours of VIP. I guess I get bored by myself when I'm with the same guy for hours and hours so I tend to drink (especially if the guy is awful, boring, grabby). Anyways, after I'm drunk, I'm constantly paranoid that the club is going to fire me for some obscure reason (or because the customer tried something fucked up and blame me for it). I don't do extras, cause drama, or do anything at all that violates club rules but I'm scared that when I clock in the next day that they'll be all "oh you were terminated."
I guess I feel this way because I've had two friends that were fired last year. One was legitimate (she fired on the spot for doing handjobs) and the other was given no explanation as to why she was fired. She just went in and they told her that she could no longer work there. I've never heard of that happening so I wonder if she's just not telling me the reason or if I should be genuinely concerned about my job.
I make fantastic money here so I'd be really sad if anything happened
I get really bad guilt from drinking at work and it stresses me out the entire day afterwards until I go back to work. I know the solution is to simply "not drink" but I hope you can empathize that my will power is only so strong especially considering I had a prior addiction.




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