I am going through a break up at the moment. It was not a very long relationship, but I fell for the guy, fell hard, and instead he completely changed his mindsucks! There was a bunch of issues and complications though, and a huge part of me is very relieved to be done with him as after our break up I've started to notice more and more red flags that I didn't see before: I'm kind of feeling "better now than later" about the whole thing. But I'm still really sad.
Since we all know how well sad strippers do at work, I've been avoiding it. To top things off he's in town this weekend and my club is located in the neighbourhood he grew up in. =double terrified to go in.Work was shit the last two weeks so I don't have high expectations, and I feel like if I have one more crap night on top of this breakup and my exams I'm really going to lose it. I have a temper when I'm REALLY upset or my anxiety levels are running high, and right now they're pretty much jacked right up there. This guy basically confirmed every doubt that I've ever had about men and was my third in a series of shit relationships. Though normally I'm cheerful and pleasant, right now I'm definitely a big giant cloud of pessimism. I threw some beer bottles out the window in a rage the night we broke up. The rage hasn't fully subsided and I still get the occasional urge to drop-kick the nearest man in the face. Another reason I've been avoiding work. I don't want to end up being one of *those* girls that loses her shit at work and gets fired/makes a scene whatever. I don't think being around alcohol would help either since that makes me even sadder and super depressed the day after...don't need to add salt to the wound so to speak. How do you girls handle working after a nasty breakup? Part of me wants to march right in and just get on with it, but part of me thinks I may just need some time to myself (a few more days, start again next weekend), and the other option I thought of was to travel and switch it up--distract myself and make some bank at the same time. Leaning towards the third option at the moment...The other thing I feel I may be in need of right now is a vanilla job to occupy my brain for a good chunk of the week.



sucks! There was a bunch of issues and complications though, and a huge part of me is very relieved to be done with him as after our break up I've started to notice more and more red flags that I didn't see before: I'm kind of feeling "better now than later" about the whole thing. But I'm still really sad.
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Going to work does end up making me feel better, because what is nicer than having a bunch of guys tell you all night how beautiful you are and how they wish they had a chance with you? It's kinda stupid, maybe, but it makes me remember that for every guy who doesn't want me, there are a million more that do, and I'm not a loser just because I got dumped. Don't let him interfere with your life too much!


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