I love the job, but only when I make money. This week was a total of $0, and last week I made little over $300 for working 3 days (also first week at this place). Last night, a Friday, I expected to sell at least 1 private dance, and I told myself if I don't sell at least one I'm done... at least for a while. I blame the club for the Tues/Thurs, but on a Friday I blame myself because I should had made something.... I just walk out an hr before closing.. it was getting to me, and I ask at least 20-some guys for a private dance after chatting them up a bit. I can easily get rehired if I come back another Sunday, since the manager doesn't care if the dancers come or not.... I'm just a number to him, which is a good thing.
I'm not ugly, and the dancers tell me I will make it. Some told me I was skinny enough. I made it last week, and I was even less attractive then. Some told me I was beautiful, sexy, and stuff like that. The customers, a whole another story, the only time I get a private dance is if the guy is just really wasted and would take anyone I think.... if it wasn't for last week, my self-esteem would be crush... but I made it last week.
I'm 25 lbs overweight for a dancer **bmi is 24**, and I think that's half my problem... guys straight up told me they are looking for a "skinny" girl. They even think I am too innocent to work there (I wouldn't work there, if I didn't love this industry.... and I love it a lot... but I don't want to waste my time either). The other half of the problem I look boring, and Arabic *dark hair/eyes*, and the top sellers are either the skinny blonde or 1 generic bombshell or a nasty girl with tattoos/piercings/sunken eyes. And they all gravitate towards someone they already know... regulars give out the most. I easily have one of the best looking faces (most look really bad under lighting), but I also easily have the worst body for a dancer there too (except for tattoo ones... but they sell too). I don't understand though.
I want to come back, and work there again because the money is good if you can sell dances.... and people do, a dancer on a Friday said she made $500, or $300. If I come back I am going to lose 30 lbs, bleach my hair, and wear color contacts, and get a tan.... that's what sells. It will take me a month to come back again though, since I only want to come back if I make money. By June/July, the economy of the club should also improve.
For now, I am going to just study my math book... since I have to study it anyways and use my time productively.



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