I came to a realization a few days ago that I am chronically burnt out of this industry. I've been trying to figure out "what my problem is" - why I can't manage to consistently work even one shift a month. I thought it was because of a plethora of other issues (maybe I need to work more often? maybe working dayshift instead of nightshift will help? maybe I need a fresh persona? maybe I should travel and dance?). I just moved to a new state that has cheaper dance prices, higher contact, etc. Sure, that stuff sucks, but it isn't the root of the problem. So I've decided that I'll strip when I can bring myself to do so (I only go in when I truly have the energy to hustle & entertain), but I'm going to stop telling myself that "I'll totally work tomorrow" when I clearly won't.
Surprisingly, I couldn't find any threads on SW about being chronically burnt out.
I wrote in my journal yesterday: "Even though I've now taken over two years off from dancing consistently, my burnout has persisted. In my case, the standard supportive mantra of "take a few weeks off! get a massage! go for a walk! start a new hobby!" is like trying to cure an enormous, throbbing brain tumor with Tylenol."
Anyone else out there with CSB? I'd love to hear that I'm not the only one!



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