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    Thumbs up Who wants to make August, 2013 their personal best of all-time?

    ...July was an absolute fucking travesty. I made roughly $300.00 all month. I cried & wallowed in self-pity incessantly. A regular actually offered to buy whatever I put on an Amazon Wish List, and I was too lazy/miserable to even do that. Thank God my boyfriend was there to make our rent and take care of other expenses. Didn't stop me from fighting with him all month, however.

    ...June was less-than-stellar. I made about $1500.00.

    ...In May I cleared $4405.00. My best in 2013. Not my all-time-best, but up there. Mind you, I was on Adderall at this time, a drug I subsequently discontinued as I was unable to take it without abusing it. It was this horrible cycle where I began to realize it was only making me function during the first 4 hours when it made me feel "high" (or what normal people call social) and then as soon as it started to wear off, I was disgruntled enough but also uninhibited enough to take 2 or 3 more at a time. This caused horrible mood swings and devastating subsequent lows. I knew prior to taking it that I have an addictive personality. I guess I'll have to learn how to cope without it. After all, my highest earning success of all time occurred by just drinking lots of black tea and devoting 5-8 hours/day to camming. (A.K.A. The old-fashioned way.)

    I want to make August my personal best. Who's with me?


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    I'm with you on this, my last three months went fairly similar to yours. May was good, June I was partying and drinking a lot and had the start of my cam slump. July I relaxed and basically took a break. So not many hours either month, but luckily I have an extremely accepting and patient partner to deal with expenses in the absence of earnings on my part. He actually encouraged me to take a break because my stress levels were through the roof. I'm sure there were times I was less than kind to him in the last few months, I can get kinda cray cray when I'm stressy! I should note I also had a court case looming that was a stressor to both of us, but that's over now.

    So this month is payback time. I wanna blow all my previous earnings out of the water! I would like to be able to take the majority of the monetary burden on my own and hopefully be able to do something special for my guy this month for being so awesome! Also I need to get back into the routine, it's so hard getting back at it once you've been off for awhile. And for me, taking time off has started to become a habit I need to break. I also plan to devote about 5-8 hours a day to camming, the "old-fashioned way" as you say, ha ha. Except my vice is coffee not tea, but caffeine definitely helps! And the "camming Rocks" thread. It always motivates me, however I have a tendency to sit and dwell in the "camming Sucks" thread, and if I do it before work i'm definitely logging on at least an hour late. I'll still read it because there's a lot of good info in there, but I'll try to keep that in mind and watch my timing, lol.

    On a side note, I just want to say congratulations to you on discontinuing the Adderall. That's a really hard thing to do and it takes a strong person to see those traits in yourself and be able to stop what could become a disastrous problem. You'll be better off for it! Just wanted to send you some kudos! Let's Rock August!!!

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    Quote Originally Posted by Raina Shine View Post
    I'm with you on this, my last three months went fairly similar to yours. May was good, June I was partying and drinking a lot and had the start of my cam slump. July I relaxed and basically took a break. So not many hours either month, but luckily I have an extremely accepting and patient partner to deal with expenses in the absence of earnings on my part. He actually encouraged me to take a break because my stress levels were through the roof. I'm sure there were times I was less than kind to him in the last few months, I can get kinda cray cray when I'm stressy! I should note I also had a court case looming that was a stressor to both of us, but that's over now.

    So this month is payback time. I wanna blow all my previous earnings out of the water! I would like to be able to take the majority of the monetary burden on my own and hopefully be able to do something special for my guy this month for being so awesome! Also I need to get back into the routine, it's so hard getting back at it once you've been off for awhile. And for me, taking time off has started to become a habit I need to break. I also plan to devote about 5-8 hours a day to camming, the "old-fashioned way" as you say, ha ha. Except my vice is coffee not tea, but caffeine definitely helps! And the "camming Rocks" thread. It always motivates me, however I have a tendency to sit and dwell in the "camming Sucks" thread, and if I do it before work i'm definitely logging on at least an hour late. I'll still read it because there's a lot of good info in there, but I'll try to keep that in mind and watch my timing, lol.

    On a side note, I just want to say congratulations to you on discontinuing the Adderall. That's a really hard thing to do and it takes a strong person to see those traits in yourself and be able to stop what could become a disastrous problem. You'll be better off for it! Just wanted to send you some kudos! Let's Rock August!!!
    Thank you so much, hun! That is genuinely appreciated. Especially the kudos!

    There have been a few times where I have wanted to go and re-fill the prescription, but I know better than that. My Father died recently, in his 50's no less, due to a lifetime of abusing substances. My Stepfather died in his 30's of the same affliction(s). I miss him (my father, that is) and have respect for him in many ways, but I definitely want to learn from some of his lesser decisions if at all possible. I guess even if parents can't always be role models, they can be examples to learn from. As I mentioned earlier, I know I have that "addictive blood" coursing through my veins, and if I'm not careful, it spirals out of control fast. I had one little 'relapse' the other day where I took 5 Sudafed (the Canadian kind) when I was feeling really anxious about camming, and it hit me hard, especially as it wore off; it had been 2 months since I had taken Adderall/Sudafed; which I would frequently combine. I was uncharacteristically (even for me) suicidal. Won't be doing that again anytime soon.

    My husband (I sometimes subconsciously say boyfriend still as we've only been married since late May, other times consciously as I feel 'strange', or maybe stigmatized, about being married at age 20) and I have a tendency to fight a lot. He was a professional hockey player (unfortunately he spent all his $ before we met) who was used to having everyone fawn over him (especially in Canada, lol) his whole life, particularly women. So while he openly admits that he admires my stubbornness that rivals his own, and makes every effort not to be confrontational when I'm stressed, he still has that "back-bone" that tells him, if someone's mouthing off to me, I'm going to mouth off back. I guess in some ways I'd admire him less if he ALWAYS just "took it", which he often does, but sometimes I need to just vent, and he's gradually coming to understand how to let that happen without reacting. So I somewhat envy how relentlessly supportive your partner is. Mine has a lot of depression, especially around his career ending, and he, not unlike me, can become pretty darn "bitchy" on an off-day. Fortunately, when all is good, he can be pretty damn wonderful.

    I'm so glad you are as enthusiastic as I am about making this August a month to be proud of! And hey, I may just switch to coffee.

    Good luck, "BB!"

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    It sounds like you have been through a lot, that's when times of addiction hit hardest so good on you for keepin' on! I'm also Canadian so I know what you mean about the hockey career, people take that stuff way to seriously here but agreeably that would be a major lifestyle change. But it sounds like you two have a balance that works. Don't get me wrong, my guy has issues too, and definitely wouldn't let me walk all over him. I agree that is definitely an unattractive quality in a mate. And when he needs me to be supportive for him I'm there. Being in a relationship is tough, it's rare two people will be in the same frame of mind at any given time, and sometimes one needs to lean on the other a little harder. That's natural, the only problem is when one leans so hard they push the other down. It's all about balance and it sounds like you have that, as well as the ability to stand solo and tall! Keep it up! You can get through it! and if you're ever having a weak moment or need someone to vent to, feel free to hit me up. All the best of luck/hard work to you this August and to all the lovely girls at SW! Muah!!!

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    I'm right there with you! This summer has been awful. I'm getting into gear. I'm adding eggs to my baskets. Trying raffles. Working on videos. This will be my month! I had 2 weeks in July of barely working at all and so my paycheck is almost nonexistent. I'm going to be struggling for the next two weeks. I will be putting in the hours. We can do this!

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    Great, motivational thread! If you can overcome an addiction and be trying to get back into making more camming, then we all can! Thanks for sharing this with us, it made me feel like I CAN do this, I just have to put my mind to it and put in the hours, which is the worst part for me! Cofffeeeee!

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    Thank you so much, girls! Your responses have actually inspired ME! You make me feel like I have something to "live up to" now. ;-)

    I wish I was as strong as some of you girls make it sound. Yes, I quit taking a drug that caused me to feel SO incredibly low (not so much when I would take it as prescribed, but every other time...) when I would come off of it, and I suppose I am proud of myself for that. That being said, I've been diagnosed and have struggled since childhood with Borderline Personality Disorder (known as of late as "Jodi Arias Disorder") and even though my therapist has tried very hard to help me understand that it is a legitimate illness, I still feel rather weak and useless for the many ways it makes functioning difficult, or even impossible at times for me. I've been very destructive to my body/soul, if not with the abuse of pharmaceutical, and rarely misc. substances, then with self-harm. I've set so many goals, my whole life, and then fail to make a legitimate effort to achieve them on a consistent basis. My BPD exists with ADD, so that makes it even harder to stay focused/productive on an ongoing basis. I really am trying, but sometimes I just want to completely give up. I partially discontinued Adderall because during my comedown periods, after about 90-120mg/XR (all 105lbs of me), it started becoming eerily feasible for me to imagine actually killing myself. The emptiness was exacerbated beyond what is normal for me, which is pretty damn empty. In any event, I genuinely appreciate all of your support. I really want to make you girls proud, in spite of all of my past failures, and the afflictions that have a history of getting the best of me. Thank you!

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    Thank you for posting this. I started camming because there are a lot of goals that I want to achieve! I am going to work my butt off in August and make it happen! $4,400
    is awesome BTW. That sounds like a good goal myself.

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    woops...double posted! I must be REALLY excited haha.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Leeshalovely View Post
    Thank you for posting this. I started camming because there are a lot of goals that I want to achieve! I am going to work my butt off in August and make it happen! $4,400
    is awesome BTW. That sounds like a good goal myself.
    Thank you! I'm glad you're inspired. My best of all-time was $3500.00 in 2 weeks, on LJ no less at $2.99/min. Hah! That was when I first started and camming was new & exciting. Also, my then-boyfriend (now husband) was taking care of all the bills, so I didn't have that terrible "OMFG I NEED TO SUCCEED OR ELSE!" feeling. I've since been minimum $4.99 after reading the Raise-Your-Rates thread. Before you feel too impressed, keep in mind I only made that much ONCE, and it was a year ago. Thinking back however, the main component was simple - I showed up regularly, and stayed extensively. Not like 14+ hours a day, but 5-8 hours. Some of those hours I made $30, some of them I made $100+. That was when camming itself, in my opinion, was also a bit more lucrative (in general) than it has lately. I know I'm not the only girl who has noticed less traffic and less paying traffic in the last few months. That being said, it's been at least 2 months since I've put in more than 2 hours, or sometimes 30 mins, at a time! That could just as easily be the culprit.

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    Yes, adarksideoftown...I'm with you! I think August is gonna be a FANTASTIC month for me because of the effort I'll be putting in, plus the fact that I think my regs who've been with me a few years want to see me have an amazing birthday month.
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    Quote Originally Posted by TheBrownFox View Post
    Yes, adarksideoftown...I'm with you! I think August is gonna be a FANTASTIC month for me because of the effort I'll be putting in, plus the fact that I think my regs who've been with me a few years want to see me have an amazing birthday month.
    Happy Birthday! And Good Luck!

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    Damn, adarksideoftown! That's quite a lot of crap you've dealt (and are dealing) with! I wish you all the success in beating your addiction and BPD and camming and all of it --For the record, unmedicated bipolar II over here! Since I have no insurance, I can't afford my meds so I drink...a LOT....to cope with my shit. I understand how easy it is to get sucked into addictive behaviors. I know I'm gonna have to dial back my drinking eventually but I guess I just haven't hit rock bottom yet (and yes, I realize how stupid it is for me to be so self aware of what's happening but not doing anything about it. *shrug*)

    ANYWAYS! I'm totally down with ya....I want to ROCK THE PANTS off August! I'm still fairly new to the cam world so I don't have much to base anything on but holy craps....July sucked for me BAD! If I can pull in $1000 this month, I'll be happy. Not a hard one to please over here!

    GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE!!!!

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    Damn my double posts!!

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    Last month I cleared with 3,950.00 which was my personal best month.
    This month I aim to clear at 4700,00.

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    Take me in !!! I am planning to start my own business very soon and I just need $5000 more which is U$162 per day. That is my August's Goal. I am gonna put in more hours, I don't mind working 8 hours if needed, no days off for me this month. All I want is to get that money soon.

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    I've actually had a pretty normal summer... I've definitely had many bad weeks but overall, I have been making the same as usual...

    But, I'm in for this challenge! It won't be my "personal best" but it will be up there... I need to get an awesome month in before school starts and my schedule picks up!

    Going for $9,000 in August! Good luck everyone!!!
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    Thank you for starting this up! I totally want to make August my best month.

    Last month was just dismal. I made rent and bills...just barely though. I kept having a combination of not being able to work/having shitty shifts when I did. On top of that my boyfriend and I broke up. It was one of those break ups that guts you emotionally, so that's been fun.

    My goals for this month: Work at least 1000 minutes per week.
    Develop a regular schedule/find out when my good shifts typically are
    Get online on time.
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    Hello ladies, I will make this with you, my personal best. July was my first month camming and I cashed in @300 usd. nowhere to go but up! I'll be looking forward to reading ya.

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    I must be burnt out bad. I read the title as " Who wants to make August 2013 their best time off" I was expecting to read about long vacations, exotic destinations oh my. Then I was going to sulk and think " damn I can't take any time off right now". The good old days where 6 months off was doable now? eh. So I guess "best all time" is what I need to read since I have to really bust my ass this go around.

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    I also want to that it is awesome for stopping medication!!! I have had chronic panic attacks since I was 9 about last year I got sick and tired of taking my medicine- I went all natural and drink Kava tea and exercise! It took me almost half the year to get myself off w/ out causing serious seizures but I am so happy I did! July has been the best month for me as well!! I finished in @ 3500 =) before that it was ehh okay other than when I first started =) I want to make August my best month and started out wonderful today reaching my first day at MFC getting 200 ppl in my room!!!

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    Hey girls! Thank you all, again, for your support and encouragement. I went to bed at 1pm today (great life skills) and woke up now @ 10:40. I still feel completely incapacitated, I get very fatigued these days. Feel a bit pessimistic about the possibility of success. Will try to go on cam later this evening. Trying to remember that just because the first day of the month didn't start off ideally, doesn't mean the rest of the month can't be a picture of success.

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    Same here. I've had them for the last ten years and was on almost every drug known to man to try and stop or control them. About two and a half years ago I quit Xanax which was my last drug and have been drug free. I am doing a million times better off of meds. I use Bach's Rescue Remedy if I need something now. It's all natural and works better then the meds did.



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    I also want to that it is awesome for stopping medication!!! I have had chronic panic attacks since I was 9 about last year I got sick and tired of taking my medicine- I went all natural and drink Kava tea and exercise! It took me almost half the year to get myself off w/ out causing serious seizures but I am so happy I did! July has been the best month for me as well!! I finished in @ 3500 =) before that it was ehh okay other than when I first started =) I want to make August my best month and started out wonderful today reaching my first day at MFC getting 200 ppl in my room!!!

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    Count me in. I haven't felt very well this summer so I kinda of slacked off. I should use August to catch up and bust ass.

    Congrats on quitting Adderall. I heard that's a hard drug to quit. I used to abuse Xanax and had the same type of reaction. They work short term and I swear you live to take those drugs in time. You'll be better off without it and find out you like not being on it. Hugs and hang in there, it will get better.


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    ...July was an absolute fucking travesty. I made roughly $300.00 all month. I cried & wallowed in self-pity incessantly. A regular actually offered to buy whatever I put on an Amazon Wish List, and I was too lazy/miserable to even do that. Thank God my boyfriend was there to make our rent and take care of other expenses. Didn't stop me from fighting with him all month, however.

    ...June was less-than-stellar. I made about $1500.00.

    ...In May I cleared $4405.00. My best in 2013. Not my all-time-best, but up there. Mind you, I was on Adderall at this time, a drug I subsequently discontinued as I was unable to take it without abusing it. It was this horrible cycle where I began to realize it was only making me function during the first 4 hours when it made me feel "high" (or what normal people call social) and then as soon as it started to wear off, I was disgruntled enough but also uninhibited enough to take 2 or 3 more at a time. This caused horrible mood swings and devastating subsequent lows. I knew prior to taking it that I have an addictive personality. I guess I'll have to learn how to cope without it. After all, my highest earning success of all time occurred by just drinking lots of black tea and devoting 5-8 hours/day to camming. (A.K.A. The old-fashioned way.)

    I want to make August my personal best. Who's with me?

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    I wish I was as strong as some of you girls make it sound. Yes, I quit taking a drug that caused me to feel SO incredibly low (not so much when I would take it as prescribed, but every other time...) when I would come off of it, and I suppose I am proud of myself for that. That being said, I've been diagnosed and have struggled since childhood with Borderline Personality Disorder (known as of late as "Jodi Arias Disorder") and even though my therapist has tried very hard to help me understand that it is a legitimate illness, I still feel rather weak and useless for the many ways it makes functioning difficult, or even impossible at times for me. I've been very destructive to my body/soul, if not with the abuse of pharmaceutical, and rarely misc. substances, then with self-harm. I've set so many goals, my whole life, and then fail to make a legitimate effort to achieve them on a consistent basis. My BPD exists with ADD, so that makes it even harder to stay focused/productive on an ongoing basis. I really am trying, but sometimes I just want to completely give up. I partially discontinued Adderall because during my comedown periods, after about 90-120mg/XR (all 105lbs of me), it started becoming eerily feasible for me to imagine actually killing myself. The emptiness was exacerbated beyond what is normal for me, which is pretty damn empty. In any event, I genuinely appreciate all of your support. I really want to make you girls proud, in spite of all of my past failures, and the afflictions that have a history of getting the best of me. Thank you!
    I'm sorry you've been struggling. It sounds like your therapist knows what they're talking about. But don't get caught up in the media's portrayal of BPD. Or even old school medical professionals.

    Have you tried Dialectical Behavioural Therapy? (DBT) You might be doing it already with your therapist but you can do it yourself also. It's the best treatment for BPD.

    Try some of these books on Amazon. I highly recommend them. My sister has BPD so I've witnessed the ups and downs.

    http://www.amazon.com/dp/B0041D8UWM/..._bs1-rb0BYR1ST
    http://www.amazon.com/dp/B005JFB3OS/..._tt1-rb1D2N08D

    Keep staying strong

    I also need to step up my game this month. We can do it! I'll start after the long weekend in Canada.

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