I've been stripping on and off for 2 years. I recently started escorting and primarily do that instead, and am only checking out a few clubs on the road for extra money. But I'm currently visiting a friend whose buddy was DJing at a local club last night so we went. It's the first time I've been in a SC as a customer since I started dancing. I guess instinctively I knew I couldn't go into one as a customer anymore and always avoided it with friends. But holy moly, I wasn't expecting the mood it put me in. It's like the second I hit that room, and the lights and the music and the smell, my mind instantly switched to "work mode." I couldn't enjoy myself. All I could think about while watching the stage was working, I was watching and critiquing hustles, I was sizing up customers... and when I left, I was in the same mood that I am when I leave work.
I've always noticed that I'm in a specific mood when I get out of the club after working. I don't want anyone to talk to me, and I don't want to be touched or flirted with. I always kinda figured ok, that makes sense after putting up with nonsense for 6 hours. But last night - same effect. My drunken friend babbled to me all the way home and then kept trying to get with me. It took everything in my power not to yell at him to shut up and not touch me. And I didn't even have to deal with customers last night!
It absolutely blew my mind and kinda scared me that my mental switch was so strong that I can't walk into that environment without going into "Aurora" mode for the rest of the night and being just as affected by the club as if I was working. I've been writing about my personal thoughts on the matter in my journal, but I'd like to hear from others. If this has been your experience as well, if you can go to the clubs as customers still and have fun, if your "dancer mindset" is that different from your everyday mindset that you notice a distinguishable difference in your mood or tolerance levels.



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