okay i wasn't going to write a thread on this but here goes and if its in the wrong sec. please move!
here is my issue. i HAD some money saved up, well allot of money saved up and put aside to pay for a new mac laptop ($2,300 to be exact) i was supposed to buy it yesterday but didn't get the chance too. i come home this morning from my boyfriends house and BAM money is gone along with some off my other electronics. (thank God i took my laptop with me!) nobody in the house wants to speak up or say who was in my room. (which was locked!) i got pissed, broke down and started breaking everything! i cant call the cops because its not like they will come and even if they do, it will be a big waste of time and all i will get is the "you should think about moving to a better area" bullshit! there is no way in hell i can come up with all that money again without busting my ass like i already do. i have been saving for 2 months or so and the laptop i have now is giving up on me. i haven't told my boyfriend yet because his anger is just as bad as mines and that's bond money i do not have! and im not planing on telling him because he contribute allot for this also. he's expecting me to have a brand new laptop today and i don't even have a penny for it. i don't know for how long i can put this off without him getting suspicious and asking questions soo i started thinking of doing something i thought i could never see myself doing or even have the guts to do .. Escorting. I was thinking just for a few days or a week the most till i have enough and just telling him i put it on lay-a-way?? but im having second thoughts because i don't wanna do this to him nor do i wanna do it myself but it looks like my only choice now. i don't know if i will be able to look at my boyfriend in the face again if i do this, i keep telling myself it's for a good cause it will pay off but it's still cheating which im not a fan of. i really don't know wtf to do nor do i know how to start or where to start! i have been looking on backpage but im so nervous its a sting, a pimp or just bullshit! im walking on glass rocks here!! i need help, how would you guys handle this situation? where do i start? please don't tell me to tell my boyfriend because i already know where that's gonna go! should i feel guilty for doing this or even thinking it or should i think positive about this. i feel like im whoring myself out just for a laptop but i know it's so much more than that, that's the laptop i would be camming on and making double the money! i got new internet and webcam all i needed was a new laptop. idk maybe im over thinking this and making it harder than it seems. please someone guide me thru this ...



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