so, normally I wouldn't do incest role playing, but this guy caught me at the right time and it didn't bother me at all. It was even a little bit of a turn-on (not in a real-world way because I'd want to kill someone who did that to any kid) but it did feed into my other role-play/fantasies of power differences and seeing a guy go crazy over an inexperienced female.
Afterward, I've been thinking a lot about it and I feel like I should feel bad. I don't, but feeling like I should feel bad is now kind of taking the place of genuinely feeling bad-- if you can follow that line of thinking.
I did want to ask the guy about his fetish to try to ascertain that he wouldn't ever follow through with this sort of thing-- I'm sure that there's plenty of guys who have rape or incest fantasies, and there's furry play for the people who get turned on by animals but wouldn't really fuck an animal.
I'm a little bit torn though.
What are your thoughts on doing fantasy work for a guy who has a fantasy of something that would really upset you if he were to follow through in the real-world?
On one end of the spectrum, I myself have had someone spy on me in a changing room and it really upset me. But the fantasy and role-playing of it, that "I know you're watching me but I'm going to pretend you're not to turn you on" is to me kind of cute and in some was could be a turn on to me.
On the other end of the spectrum, yesterday I did two different shows for the same guy. The first one he wanted me to be a scuba-diving babe (complete with snorkel mask) which I thought was really cute and inoffensive. It didn't hurt that we did cam2cam and he himself was just adorable. Then a few minutes later I did another role play for him where I pretended he chloroformed me, and then I bound my hands and feet and struggled around on my bed, and then pretended he chloroformed me.
I was chatting to another custy about how there must be something wrong with me because I just thought it was adorable. Neither was a turn on for me at all, and I did slightly worry if somehow I was contributing-- would he eventually escalate from thinking, to non-interactional porn, to interactional porn, to doing it for real?
Because if that's the case, I wouldn't want to do it. But then I think of my own internal fantasy life and there's definitely times where there's stuff that turns me on to masturbate to, but I would not be down with in real-life unless it was just role-playing/play-acting and maybe not even then.



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I can talk about some subjects that some can't, and others can talk about things that I can't...sometimes it all just depends on what kind of mood I'm in also. There are days when I don't feel like camming to the extent that I won't even gag on a dildo lol





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