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ebb&flow
Thanks in advance for reading and commenting. I will try to be quick.
Not really "in the biz" didn't know how to put it, but please read on.
So back in August I really needed $, so I made an account on SA and ended up losing my virginity to this 45 y-o man who never paid me, never called, and didn't return any emails after that.
I then made an account on "sugardaddie", which I actually found to be the best, but cost 50 pounds for one month!! Anyways, met a guy there, flew me to undisclosed European destination, and basically had to fuck him all the time.. Gave me 180 pounds when he dropped me at some tube station and that was it. Said I wasn't matuuure enough for him.. Well, buddy, I didn't even exist for more than half your life.
Then I got really sick and couldn't keep my day job anymore, and spent most my days sleeping.. Got a message from this other guy on site, he was so persistent, so I met him... Took me to the casino, kept me there until the tube closed, taxi to his, and didn't pressure me to sleep with him, but we did anyways. Which was obviously his whole plan.
Slept with him a couple other times, and he'd pay like half my cab.. And one night he bought Chinese, and said he used all his cash and couldn't make it to a cashpoint(had to leave really early in the morning for work).. SO I ended up paying for the cab.. Called me a slut and was soooo controlling and I knew him for like.. 2 weeks? And he had this rash that I noticed after the fact, and I was so freaked it was herpes and he had the audacity to try saying it could be from me!!! I had been sexually active for like less than a month at that point. Asshole.
So then I lost my job because I was too depressed to really do it right, and was running out of money from being unemployed for a whole month prior and just sleeping. So this guy contacts me on SA, super rich, owns a football team.. Flies me to his city, I sleep with him and he leaves 100 euros for food or w.e, and then was supposed to be back next day but didn't cause his wife was worried or w.e he said. Told him he promised to be a good host, I was alone in a country whose language I do not speak.. Called me immature and didn't contact me for days.
So anyways, I ended up borrowing money and flying back to my homeland. But it's so weird being here I am completely different. I can't possibly tell anyone all of this.. Although one of my close guy friends knows most, and surprisingly still talks to me.. I honestly can't stay here and pretend I'm still the old me, and being home just makes all my sacrifices a huge disgusting waste.
I plan on flying back to where I was before and making this my "thing" sorta, and finish studying and paying my student loans and such. Ugh- life would be so much simpler if I came from money.
Surprisingly I'm not too too upset, and am managing.. Mostly mad at myself for being so innocent and naive(well, not anymore!) I even let them not use a condom. I don't even know. Went to the sexual health clinic, everything clear, waiting til January for HIV test.. The woman almost called a social worker so I had to start lying..
Alone in a foreign country, no parents, tough situations. I feel guilty, but I did what I had to do to survive.
So? What would you do in my situation?
Please nothing too negative. I know I was beyond stupid.
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