I think my family members are dysfunctional. I try to distance myself from them as much as possible so as not to say or do anything disrespectful but now that its the holidays I feel forced to be around them - which is stressing me out.
I am mainly not happy with the fact that the people who are supposed to be close to you are the ones who negative and close-minded dream stealers. I am very liberal and open-minded and don't feel a real connection to them. But I go through the motions so I don't offend them. But something about this holiday season is making me realize I don't want to be fake anymore.
The truth is I didn't feel like talking to my dad during thanksgiving holiday because I don't like talking on the phone or listening to anybody else who is pessimistic or wants to harp on my flaws. Maybe I should have sent a card or something but I really don't want to listen to him gripe about me not calling him back.
I am also pissed he called my other family members acting all 'concerned' when I don't answer, when a simple text would suffice. I can't always talk on the phone (and really don't want to sometimes). I feel like he is always trying to be a victim and likes to make me feel guilty.
Maybe its me. And this lack of daylight is cause me to have a short fuse...?
It would be ideal to move some place away from my family of origin so I have no obligations to them and can just love them from a distance. I love them as humans and family but I don't like their qualities or being around them too long because they do and say things that get on my nerves. Maybe they won't get on my nerves so much when I'm far, far away from them.
Are any of you all estranged from your family/parents?



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I do love them but I still want to move away again after the holidays for myself. Yes to answer your question , I've got a dysfunctional side of the family in which I hate & it's mommy dearest .


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