I have a really large family with lots of siblings. Out of all my siblings only 1 reaches out to me, or responds to me if I send a text or email (I live in a different state than they do). It's incredibly hurtful that I've shown up to every siblings wedding(s), sent baby shower gifts, send Christmas gift every year, call on their birthday to wish them a happy day (only to get voicemail and no call back), and ultimately supported them in any and every way possible.
In return I get nothing (98% of the time). No text back, no phone call response, letter, email, basically ignored at family functions I've paid to travel to attend for them. It's been thing way for years, and it continues to hurt. Horribly. I feel as thought I've done nothing to my family to deserve this kind of treatment. The only think I can think of is from my childhood; I went through some really traumatic experiences between 12-15years old which none of them knew at the time even happened, and in turn I was super hormonal and emotional to an extreme. But I never was that way towards my siblings. If anything I took whatever I was feeling out on myself or my mother, who I am incredibly close with now. It feels like I'm judged for those actions I took as a child in my adult life. It's unfair and really hurtful. I'm at a point where I don't want to keep trying anymore, or I'll feel so fed up sometimes that I want to treat them the way they've treated me for so long...but I never end up doing it cause I end up feeling bad just thinking that.
Have any of you gone through anything like this before? I feel like I'm related to a bunch of strangers, which isn't the way families should be.
On a side note - when I am much more financially stable I will go to counseling for this, however I can't do that as of now.



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