When I first started dancing a couple years ago, I had read up on hustle hut before hand, went in and was an unstoppable force. I have always had anxiety, but for some reason I was always busy and able to deal with it. The club I was working at quickly declined in business, so as a result I started drinking more with the regulars who would buy me drinks. I figured if I wasn't making money, at least I'd get drunk. I ended up quitting that club, as I was making horrible money, and now travel to one twice the distance which has a better clientele that actually spends money. I've only been there a couple weeks, and I realize that the same issues are coming up again...especially days I work day shift and there's not much to do. I have told my manager that I would prefer nights since the lure of alcohol isn't as strong when it's busy, but now I'm having anxiety just going into the place. The last time I was there I made an ass out of myself and missed my stage set, so I'm not looking forward to going back. I think about going and I have extreme anxiety. I never used to have to drink to work. In fact I would only have 1-3 drinks per shift only if a guy was taking me to a champagne room or tipping me to sit and drink with him. I made this a strict rule, but now I'm finding it very hard to just go in knowing I cannot drink to cover up my anxiety. I know I can make much more money sober, as when I'm drinking all sales tactics go out the window. I love dancing, the flexibility of scheduling, and the easy, quick cash. I have plans for furthering my education as well as modeling and I don't want these issues to get in the way of my goals. Quitting is not an option, but I find myself finding excuses this week not to go in. Has anyone else dealt with this?



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