I started dancing in October
At a super fkn dive club
By Thanksgiving
I was done.
I enjoyed meetin new people, the few girls I met
Im not so sure why Im not dancing anymore
Apart of the reason is.
The guys went for less polished/attractive
U had to look like the girl nxt door.
Girls were sleeping with
Management dwn to Doormen
It was so many extras going
On dudes would strictly come n grab
N go or
Dance once to see who's
Trickin..
"Im not pAyin for dances allnight
I need more than that"
I found myself sleepin with 6 guys.
In a 2 month period.
To either add to or get money.
(i made the price they paid)
I just had a baby 6 mnths prior
To all of this.
Feelings of guilt leaving her home
With her grandmother.
Until I catch a cab [email protected] 4 a.m.
Nothing is more important to me
Than my health,and safety
In order to care for her properley.
So I QUIT!
Lets keep in mind im a student
Im not gonna STRIP for fun
Or enough to get back my housefee..
There was not enough money n
There..n it wasnr jus me!!
I.was.considered a top girl
(nothing [email protected] dive)
Maybe I should try a bttr place.
I got stuck there..somehow.
F L I P S I D E....
I have a fiance....who works as a electrician
He makes good money we live okay.
We have a few properties alot of crdit cards
N bills. But
Were at a time where bills are high
Money is tight. He never knew anythinabout
Me dancing.. He went out of town on a contracting job
I really love him. We have been thru alot. Hes a good man
We have fixed alot of issues hes changing on his
Own he actually trusts me now pays my tuition
And takes great care of our daughter. Tls me he loves me
His respect for me as a mother to our child n my steo daughter
He holds high in regaurd
I am supposed to b getting married this summer.
Idk wht to do.....
I dnt wanna trip on how happy we could have been.
I could lie n make up tons of stories n hide all evidence
N live a double life. Jepordize my home, finance,and family.
Lord knows id sacrafice anything but myself.
Do I tell him I need more money.?
Do I jus take my action n see wht happens?
Sit my ass home n school n wait for wht
He gives me?until I graduate.
Stripping is all fun n money making
Till your in love and torn between
Making money and settling dwn.
Voices are telling me "Bitch income tax season is here holidys
Are over...u lost weight...they havent seen u...get a few custom honey
Outfits n give those guys a reminder"...
"everytime a woman DIDNT do something as a result of
Having a boyfriend...later she regrets"
Please give me any advice its appriciated.
Thanks lovers!



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