My life has been absolutely crazy the last few months, so please bear with me. BF of 2 years moved back to Sweden last fall. I'm moving to him in a few months (April? May? June? It's up in the air). I was planning to stay at my day job up until a month before I moved. But last week I quit. It was a quit before you get fired situation. I'm a little embarrassed about it. I'm bipolar and for the last couple of years I really haven't been able to get myself together in that aspect. I'm making a LOT of improvement, but I still have bad days sometimes. In all honesty, I'm so much happier now that I'm not at my day job! A big burden has been taken off my shoulders- I was miserable there.
Problem is- money! I was hoping to stay there until closer to my move and take advantage of the good pay/benefits. It was my security blanket.
Now I'm going to strip full time and work at the dungeon more. So now that I've spent the last week being depressed and kicking myself, I'm ready to go out there again. I have two plans:
1. strip more
2. take advantage of my sewing skills and sell costumes!
As for stripping, I think the immediate money would help ease my anxiety. The club I'm at now isn't lucrative at all! $80 is a good day for me :/ And working in the dungeon is so hit or miss. I've had one session in the past 2-3 months. Since there aren't many other topless places in my area, I'm going to go to a nude place for the first time. I'm a little nervous, but I think it will be fine.
As for selling costumes- I'm super excited! I have some cute ideas and I've been making new patterns. My only set back right now is grading the patterns to make different sizes. But I guess I can start with OSFA string bikinis until I get those patterns sorted out.
I'm a little nervous after getting rejected in Vegas so much (and at a club here). But I'm thinking of just going to audition tonight nervous or not. I have a few clubs in mind that are actually really close me. Would it be a bad idea to audition on a Thursday night before the Superbowl? Should I wait until Monday?



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