Hello! I have been lurking and reading this forum for a while and have read a ton of super valuable information. I had a short go at camming on MFC a couple of years ago and had a good go of it. I tried it again last month and made so little money, had my camscore of course immediately tank, and felt almost humiliated . It was so awful and so different from the first time I tried it. So, I have signed up with Streamate and waiting for approval, and it feels like waiting forever even if it has only been a week so far.
I am an American living in Germany and I am unable to do vanilla work here, and my boyfriend is gone all the time working so I have a lot of time. We are also totally broke and we have a lot of debts. He's even had to ask friends to loan him money so he can pay my language school bills, which makes me feel like shit. Since I moved here I have been supported financially by my boyfriend, which has been really nice but there is too much control that someone has when they are taking care of you, and it just feels bad because he's working his ass off and I bring in nothing.
When I told him I wanted to do camming, he freaked out at first...which kind of surprised me because he met me during a time when I was doing that and said he was okay with it, but men are often full of shit. This time around his reaction was anger and disgust, but we have worked through that and he has more or less accepted it and at times speaks supportively about it, although he says it's "easy" and not a "real job", which is bullshit. He wants me to open with him about it, and I can certainly agree to that but he is worried that I will enjoy it. Then wants to know if I do because that will change things for him. I think that is stupid, I see it as money and that it is something I am okay and comfortable with doing, and I shouldn't have to hate it because he doesn't like the idea. I am not even sure what he means when he says "enjoy it"....like have real orgasms or just like my job?
Anyways...that was a long introduction, but just wanted to introduce myself.



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