I've posted occasionally on SW about how I've been continuously thinking about telling my mom about my work. It's been a real drag on my thoughts lately and today I decided, spur of the moment, to get it over with. My mom and I are pretty close, and now that I've been doing this for a year I've begun to feel the weight of this little wall it's built between us.
I told her that something was weighing on me - one of those things she'd probably rather not know about. I quickly added, "and no, I'm not pregnant." I asked her how she would feel if I did "something between being a phone sex operator and a porn actress." She asked me to clarify, so I told her it was online webcam sex work.
She just said "no." It felt like a ton of bricks falling on me.
I told her I had already been doing it for about a year, and she totally switched gears. She told me that all women use "this sort of thing" to their advantage, and if it worked for me, it worked for her. She joked: "So I guess you're not going to be a senator, huh?" We laughed.
We talked for a little bit more about it, and I assured her that I was doing my best to stay safe and take care of myself. She told me the usual: call your dad more, pay off those credit cards. And then it was done.
I expected to feel a little more relief afterward, but I just feel... normal. But it's good. I'm glad I got it off my chest.



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I am so happy for you that you made that step, and that youre mother reacted like she did! Must be so much easier in the future to not have that "secret part" standing between you and her.
This is great,your fathers are divorced? I should to call my father more often also....




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