
Originally Posted by
pinkpink
I'm not sure what to say but I need to vent and this seems like the proper thread. First of all, I am sick, mentally. My doctor thinks I am bipolar. My friends and family think that's insane. Well if that isn't enough to make you feel split down the middle, I don't know what is. I stopped taking my medication about a week ago. I just can't do it. I was on 2 pills and my doctor wanted to add one more, just no. No no no no. I don't want to be dependent on 3+ pills everyday to function. I know that may not make sense to many as the point of the pills is to function, but I just can't do it. Backstory: My mom died of an "accidental" overdose so I hate pills. I hate taking them, I hate it.
I'm so crazy, insane. I know. I try to talk to people about it and they tell me to get over it, suck it up, stop crying like a little bitch. It's just too much sometimes.
I'm exhausted. I exceeded my camming goal this week but at what cost? I am run down beyond description. But I have to work. I got one check and 2 bills in the mail today that cancelled each other out. It's so depressing. But, I do not regret my decision to quit my job for camming. I was living paycheck to paycheck before so the only difference is that I get to cuddle my dog all day.
I'm tired, I'm rundown, I feel like I pissed off some of the girls in the chat last night by venting about how a 2 hour long pvt was killing me....so if it's ok....I will only talk about that here and not in the chat from now on. Thanks....
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