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Awesome, got my period early. Painful as fuck and at least I can keep water down today, unlike yesterday, when I had to resort to, um, less than traditional way to take pain meds. Day damn two, everyone, day damn two.
Okay! I'm posting because I want to read this entire thread and because i belong here!!!! I'm going blind (it's so hard to put on makeup!) I can't afford contact lenses yet to even see if they work! I have a few disabilities I don't want to mention at the moment because it probably requires a lot of typing and im in a hurry! ;/ ... My teeth are super bad right now so camming is super hard! I'm constantly trying not to show teeth, smile with mouth closed, no talking!!! ugh. plus my back kills! hm, crazy headaches and migraines, severe muscle spasms... PTSD, social anxiety, anxiety attacks, horrific living conditions, also, ive lost my voice for some reason, probably muscle spasms. I sound like a really old frog who smokes a lot!!!!! (so no talking) I'm also severely underweight and malnourished at this time, it's been this way since before 2009. or well it's been getting worse, in general.... anyways, love you all and so happy to see this thread!!!!!![]()
I was too sick to make it to my scheduled doctor's appointment this morning. That is never a good sign. :/
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I wish my period would just start. Its been 5 days of severe PMS and I swear I have PMDD or whatever thats callled.



I just wanted to give the largest thank you to anonymous camgirl!! You literally saved me yesterday. I have not had any success with my hands healing yet and the doctors keep adding more and more medicine. I am now on a pill to help with the itch of the hands called Hydroxyzine and another pill called Methotextrate (horribly dangerous chemotherapy pill). Anyway the combination of the two had me AWFULLY constipated for some days. But I cant take laxatives. In a hurry to provide myself relief yesterday I tried an enema. IMMEDIATELY began to vomit like crazy. No bathroom usage though. So I read your post about the coconut oil. I did not have the money for the herbal remedies, like I said STUPIDLY behind on my rent and about to lose our house. So I just melted the coconut oil and drunk about four tablespoons. I woke up to relief this morning, used the bathroom ALOT!! Thank you, in my mind you saved me this morning!!





Wow! thanks.. finally someone listens to me around here haha.. j/k.. I didn't know you would poop though?? I am doing it for liver flushing.. I hope you are not melting it in the microwave though... What I do is heat up water in the micro and then I stick the jar of coconut oil in the mug of hot water and stir.. and then I add my juice and drink with the straw because it solidifies to fast...lol.. and the liver/gb tonic!... but if you wanna poop a very quick fix is magnesium citrate at the grocery store or drug store and it's cheap!
p.s. what I mean by jar is I use a mason jar with the amount of coconut oil I want.. NOT the actual jar of coconut oil and make sure it's EXTRA VIRGIN organic good stuff!



LOL, silly me, yeah it was the organic extra virgin, i mixed it with a little orange juice, it was cold juice so it solidified with the pulp, little crumbles...but I drank it. And pooped lots!! Cant do magnesium citrate, it goes against the medication that I am taking. But anyway, you helped me, even though I did it all wrong





So my period finally started. Tonight, in a cam show. Yep that's the kind of luck I've had this week.![]()
Meanwhile at JAC's apartment.....
*JAC wakes up exhausted and doesn't want to get out of bed*
JAC: I need to work.
JAC'S BRAIN: Sleep.
JAC: Seriously, I need to work.
JAC'S BRAIN: Sleeeeeeeeeeeep.
JAC: Fuck off brain, I need to work.
JAC'S BRAIN: Tell you what, if you just let me rest here with my eyes closed for 5 minutes then we will get up and work. That sounds like a fair deal, right?
JAC: Okay brain, as long as you promise me.
JAC'S BRAIN: I promise.
*JAC wakes up three hours later and has almost no time left to cam*
JAC: Dammit!





^^ LOL sounds familiar!.. I cannot get up at 5am to save my life these days.. been sleeping in til 7 or 8 am everyday uggh





Taking some time off from camming, and I'm just doing PSO, because the mask is starting to come off, and guys can see how unhappy and sad I am.... Time to regroup, refresh, and restart my engine another day.





First thing is first, I AM NOT ANOREXIC. I do not have any eating disorder. I've been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder.
My depression has been coming back with a vengeance. When I get in my little hole, I tend not to eat. I honestly believe I do not deserve food. My husband noticed that I haven't been eating or finishing meals. Usually I eat like a horse, I never pick and push my food around. I will go without meals then when I get too hungry, I'll finally eat. Usually this meal is in the evening when my husband is home where I can't hide it.
I recently came out to him about this. It's kinda embarrassing, almost 30 and I have to have my husband monitor my eating habits.
I don't feel fat, I don't think I need to lose weight at all. I'm perfectly happy with my body tone.
When I become depressed it is near impossible to get me to eat. I am just not interested in any way. My theory is that since the pleasure center of our brain is rewarded to get us to eat in the first place then if something is interrupting it from working (such as depression) that it would be completely natural to feel a disconnection to food or feel as if you don't deserve it.





I am sad to hear this, I went through a period of a few years where I couldn't smile.. it was absolutely physically impossible.. I tried... It's actually a physical thing to be so depleted you cannot smile.. I hope one day you can smile again.. I am sorry.. I think it's so hard for us old gals.. this is definitely a young woman's game.. us old ladies.. are disheartened, sad, disappointed.. physically or mentally ill.. it's a sad lot.. and so hard to keep up with..haha..
Stupid Red Dragon......bleeding like a stuck pig, exhaustion and cramps has me stuck in bed today. I might as well just try to work on clips because I am not going to get any camming done.
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^ Same here. I doubt I'll do much of anything today though...I don't even feel up to making clips![]()





oh I just got off my period.. i'll carry the torch for ya guys while you recover...LOL





I am terrified to add up how much Tylenol I've taken over the weekend. I just know 4 grams in 24 hours is when it causes liver damage. My milk thistle came in, but my cramps are too bad for me to keep those huge gelcaps down. Ironic, huh?





^^ LOL you are so funny!
If it wasn't for you girls, I would surely go INSANE!





^^ Ditto!! You ladies keep me going some days <3
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