Well I did not get out of bed today. I ended up getting on the phone with my sister and crying my eyes out. I guess in 1 week I am going to move in with her and her boyfriend. It's a chance to live rent-free and get back on my feet, so I feel like I should do this. Save money and get myself back in a good place, mentally. Force myself to eat meals, get out of bed, go outside. Of course my sister knows nothing of my camming so this is going to be an epic change and obstacle for me. I will really only be able to cam during the week ~9-5. I will just have to work on phone sex, texting, and making clips. They think I do freelance work so I will have to start doing that for real. So, maybe that will be good too. More baskets, more eggs, get into writing & crafting more. I don't know. I just know my lease is up in 10 days and I can't stay in this hellhole anymore, I don't have the money to move into a new place and I'm just in a really bad space mentally. This sucks. But I guess I have to say that I am super grateful I have a support system there to help me through these next few months. Even if it means, loss of freedom, no more smoking weed and drinking all night on cam. I'll survive. I have to. Expect me to vent here, SW, a lot more I bet.

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