




Thought you guys might be interested to know this:
I just picked up some of that Synergy Kombucha drink so I was reading about the health benefits..Think I might get one of these a week now.
Kombucha Health Benefit #3 — Aids Digestion and Gut Health
Because it’s naturally fermented with a living colony of bacteria and yeast, Kombucha is a probiotic beverage. This has a myriad of benefits such as improved digestion, fighting candida (harmful yeast) overgrowth, mental clarity, and mood stability. As such, it’s noted for reducing or eliminating the symptoms of fibromyalgia, depression, anxiety, etc.
I just want to stay in bed. But I am FORCING myself to get new accounts set up, four to be exact. I just keep seeing dollar signs in my head, and it helps me take each step at a time even tho my entire being is not interested whatsoever. I am trying, and that's more than I've done in over three months.





Had a horrible weekend. School and money have me stressed, fought with the BF, drank a fifth every day of the weekend. Bad idea, cuz it makes my meds not work. So now, I have a perma hangover and the meds I so desperately need won't stay down. I had a major problem with alcohol when I was younger and stripping. Worse it ever got was I stopped breathing. Had half a bottle of 151. My friend had to do CPR and call an ambulance. When they drew my blood, my BAC was .34, which is almost a coma. I'm nowhere near that these days, but it really is a slippery slope![]()
I made it on cam today but seeing myself in that pop up ad really threw me off so I ended up having to stop at $93 today.
I am *trying* not to beat myself over being so 'emotionally weak' that the experience threw me off enough that I stopped camming for the day. It is just so hard though. I really need the money and the universe just seems dead set and throwing every physical and emotional obstacle in my way that it can to stop me from getting it. It is so hard not to hold myself accountable for not being 'strong' enough to dodge all of them with ease.
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So unmotivated to work my cam today.
I seriously need the money but I've just been lying here in bed for hours and procrastinating by answering threads here on Stripperweb.





Thanks Jane, but I'd run into a little problem. See, I'm in school for a double degree in human services and chemical dependency counseling. Ironic, huh lol? I may run into instructors who work in some places I'd go or classmates doing internships there. I did, however, sign up for an online alcohol tracker/support group.
It's less ironic then you think. The people who can best help other people find their way through chemical dependency are the ones who have looked into that dark abyss themselves.
I can give you this tiny piece of advice. If you are going to do it the online way (which is completely understandable) you should also definitely look into some private one-on-one based counseling.
If anyone hassles you about going in the future in regards to your career tell them that you only went as 'career research' and that you wanted to 'mystery shop' sessions to see how people really act in sessions after their schooling. Plausible deniability can truly get you far in this society.
The reason I mention the one-on-one part is because AA (as well as cognitive therapy) work by helping people to develop more helpful habits. It can be an almost insurmountable challenge to try and built those new habits when you are dealing with the exact same environment and environmental pressures you always have. But, you already knew that didn't you?
No matter what you choose on your path to recovery, my heart is with you and I will be here wishing you the best.
Last edited by justanothercamgirl; 10-07-2014 at 08:47 AM. Reason: tired.brain.is.tired.
Been doing great at overcoming my anxiety and ADHD using medical 420 and some new age stuff like meditation and crystals. It helps when I start to feel myself getting out of control. But I'm not gonna lie, there have been a few things in my personal life upsetting me and it's getting more difficult to stay in a good head space.
My mother knows about "Rainey Lane" and we got into it. There's also a freeloading member harassing me on my main site and it seems I can't block him from my chatroom. He's fucking with my mood. Trying to get back to my happy place... Ommmmmm


Well, I got back from my walk, fell asleep for 3 hours and ended up on the phone to NHS111 because I was getting really strong urges to self harm. They arranged for a doctor to call me back, and I lied and said I was feeling better. I bought razors and took them apart. Didn't do it in the end because last time scared me so much and I couldn't think of a way to hide the aftermath if I ever do get back on cam...
I'm going to try again today to stream. Even for 30 minutes. I'll be on AW, so might opt out of free chat. I'll sit and play games, and if I get a booking then great, and if not at least I logged in.
I hope yesterday went better for you in the end than it did for me JAC!
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