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    Quote Originally Posted by sophiesecrets View Post
    i feel where ur coming from... i was, am still in a similar situation. i dont even want to be sexual with him anymore because every time we are he wants to relive "it". hey im a camgirl right... should be just like a show right, no big deal... the demons it stirs up can wreck my mood for days...

    but it gets better =) little steps. if u can get on for an hour and u cn get a load of laundry done... be proud of urself.
    Yeah...its healing little by little. But yeah, sometimes things just come up and create havoc. Logged in today though and am keeping going

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    This last week I slacked off so damn bad. Because so many demons came back to haunt me. I thought about what went on sex wise in my previous relationship. A lot of that stuff has scarred me. I thought at the time it would be good sexual experience and make me more valued as a partner, but it didn't. I realize now it broke me the fuck down. A lot of the stuff that went on I didn't really agree to, but its not assault if you don't say no at the time right? Of course it is, but yeah, dealing with this made me not want to be fucking myself on cam for guys. I am back now though and thankfully the reception has been good so far.

    Just wondering how I deal with this from this point onward. I feel like everything that happened sexually was the opposite of what I needed but I was too weak to say otherwise at the time. I am scared that I will never be in a functional relationship again as this is what has become normal for me.

    This nonsense has messed with my head and made me sad when it comes to camming. I can't handle another bout of depression again, my bills will not get paid. Hoping this blows over or I can forget about it for now and just focus.
    I don't claim to know any of life's answers but I would say forgiving yourself for not knowing would be a really good first step.

    I promise you that you will have a functional relationship again in the future. Healing from trauma just takes time.


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    Quote Originally Posted by justanothercamgirl View Post
    I don't claim to know any of life's answers but I would say forgiving yourself for not knowing would be a really good first step.

    I promise you that you will have a functional relationship again in the future. Healing from trauma just takes time.

    Thanks JAC, you're the best xoxo

    Side note, logged in, kept logged in and pulled $104. Happiness. Glad I got on cam despite the ill feeling

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    Thought you guys might be interested to know this:

    I just picked up some of that Synergy Kombucha drink so I was reading about the health benefits..Think I might get one of these a week now.

    Kombucha Health Benefit #3 — Aids Digestion and Gut Health

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    Absolutely no energy or motivation to work today, or the past 2 days... Fucking depression.
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    Quote Originally Posted by MiaFaye View Post
    Absolutely no energy or motivation to work today, or the past 2 days... Fucking depression.
    I am right there with you. I find it helps if I force myself to put on my makeup. Might take me hours to do it, but once I am done it makes it easier to get on cam.

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    I just want to stay in bed. But I am FORCING myself to get new accounts set up, four to be exact. I just keep seeing dollar signs in my head, and it helps me take each step at a time even tho my entire being is not interested whatsoever. I am trying, and that's more than I've done in over three months.

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    Had a horrible weekend. School and money have me stressed, fought with the BF, drank a fifth every day of the weekend. Bad idea, cuz it makes my meds not work. So now, I have a perma hangover and the meds I so desperately need won't stay down. I had a major problem with alcohol when I was younger and stripping. Worse it ever got was I stopped breathing. Had half a bottle of 151. My friend had to do CPR and call an ambulance. When they drew my blood, my BAC was .34, which is almost a coma. I'm nowhere near that these days, but it really is a slippery slope
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    Close contact, for an hour, for $40? And I guess I'll have to make conversation with them too?

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    Go to AA meetings for support. I heard it's a great place to get support for any issues with alcohol.



    Quote Originally Posted by SweetJulia View Post
    Had a horrible weekend. School and money have me stressed, fought with the BF, drank a fifth every day of the weekend. Bad idea, cuz it makes my meds not work. So now, I have a perma hangover and the meds I so desperately need won't stay down. I had a major problem with alcohol when I was younger and stripping. Worse it ever got was I stopped breathing. Had half a bottle of 151. My friend had to do CPR and call an ambulance. When they drew my blood, my BAC was .34, which is almost a coma. I'm nowhere near that these days, but it really is a slippery slope

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    I made it on cam today but seeing myself in that pop up ad really threw me off so I ended up having to stop at $93 today.

    I am *trying* not to beat myself over being so 'emotionally weak' that the experience threw me off enough that I stopped camming for the day. It is just so hard though. I really need the money and the universe just seems dead set and throwing every physical and emotional obstacle in my way that it can to stop me from getting it. It is so hard not to hold myself accountable for not being 'strong' enough to dodge all of them with ease.


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    What is it about seeing that pop up that got you so down, sis?
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    I made it on cam today but seeing myself in that pop up ad really threw me off so I ended up having to stop at $93 today.

    I am *trying* not to beat myself over being so 'emotionally weak' that the experience threw me off enough that I stopped camming for the day. It is just so hard though. I really need the money and the universe just seems dead set and throwing every physical and emotional obstacle in my way that it can to stop me from getting it. It is so hard not to hold myself accountable for not being 'strong' enough to dodge all of them with ease.

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    Quote Originally Posted by reversecowgirl View Post
    I just want to stay in bed. But I am FORCING myself to get new accounts set up, four to be exact. I just keep seeing dollar signs in my head, and it helps me take each step at a time even tho my entire being is not interested whatsoever. I am trying, and that's more than I've done in over three months.
    You are doing AWESOME!

    Remember anything is better than zero.


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    Quote Originally Posted by Marina Starr View Post
    What is it about seeing that pop up that got you so down, sis?
    You always ask the best questions, sis. <3

    I guess it was just really unsettling to come face-to-face for the first time with the persona I play on cam.

    I understand now why some actors and actresses refuse to watch movies that they act in. (*laughs*)

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    So unmotivated to work my cam today.



    I seriously need the money but I've just been lying here in bed for hours and procrastinating by answering threads here on Stripperweb.

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    I've been trying to get on cam for the past 2 days and just can't... I don't know what to do. I need to work. Feel like crying. Help.
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    Quote Originally Posted by MiaFaye View Post
    I've been trying to get on cam for the past 2 days and just can't... I don't know what to do. I need to work. Feel like crying. Help.
    We will do it together MiaFaye. We just need to take little steps together. I haven't even gotten my makeup on yet.

    Tell you what, let's both put on our makeup and report back here to check in.



    Remember, little victories can eventually win the largest of battles.

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    We will do it together MiaFaye. We just need to take little steps together. I haven't even gotten my makeup on yet.

    Tell you what, let's both put on our makeup and report back here to check in.



    Remember, little victories can eventually win the largest of battles.
    That would be great

    My partner has asked if I want to go for a walk to clear my brain fuzz, so I should be back in an hour or so...

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    Quote Originally Posted by MiaFaye View Post
    That would be great

    My partner has asked if I want to go for a walk to clear my brain fuzz, so I should be back in an hour or so...

    ps: sherlock <3
    Take your time! Remember even if you just sit in front of your makeup today and don't even get around to putting on a single drop of it then today is still a small victory over yesterday.

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    Go to AA meetings for support. I heard it's a great place to get support for any issues with alcohol.
    Thanks Jane, but I'd run into a little problem. See, I'm in school for a double degree in human services and chemical dependency counseling. Ironic, huh lol? I may run into instructors who work in some places I'd go or classmates doing internships there. I did, however, sign up for an online alcohol tracker/support group.
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    Quote Originally Posted by SweetJulia View Post
    Thanks Jane, but I'd run into a little problem. See, I'm in school for a double degree in human services and chemical dependency counseling. Ironic, huh lol? I may run into instructors who work in some places I'd go or classmates doing internships there. I did, however, sign up for an online alcohol tracker/support group.
    It's less ironic then you think. The people who can best help other people find their way through chemical dependency are the ones who have looked into that dark abyss themselves.

    I can give you this tiny piece of advice. If you are going to do it the online way (which is completely understandable) you should also definitely look into some private one-on-one based counseling.

    If anyone hassles you about going in the future in regards to your career tell them that you only went as 'career research' and that you wanted to 'mystery shop' sessions to see how people really act in sessions after their schooling. Plausible deniability can truly get you far in this society.

    The reason I mention the one-on-one part is because AA (as well as cognitive therapy) work by helping people to develop more helpful habits. It can be an almost insurmountable challenge to try and built those new habits when you are dealing with the exact same environment and environmental pressures you always have. But, you already knew that didn't you?

    No matter what you choose on your path to recovery, my heart is with you and I will be here wishing you the best.
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    Quote Originally Posted by MiaFaye View Post
    I've been trying to get on cam for the past 2 days and just can't... I don't know what to do. I need to work. Feel like crying. Help.
    Hey hun, I know this struggle. PM me if you need someone to chat to or if you need someone to keep you company during shifts on skype. I live in SA at the moment so our time zones aren't too far apart. Always here for you xx

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    Even an online suport group is still great. I don't think it's ironic at all, it makes sense. Many counselors have suffered from the same issues as the people they counsel. I personally would want a counselor with actual experience.


    Quote Originally Posted by SweetJulia View Post
    Thanks Jane, but I'd run into a little problem. See, I'm in school for a double degree in human services and chemical dependency counseling. Ironic, huh lol? I may run into instructors who work in some places I'd go or classmates doing internships there. I did, however, sign up for an online alcohol tracker/support group.

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    Been doing great at overcoming my anxiety and ADHD using medical 420 and some new age stuff like meditation and crystals. It helps when I start to feel myself getting out of control. But I'm not gonna lie, there have been a few things in my personal life upsetting me and it's getting more difficult to stay in a good head space.

    My mother knows about "Rainey Lane" and we got into it. There's also a freeloading member harassing me on my main site and it seems I can't block him from my chatroom. He's fucking with my mood. Trying to get back to my happy place... Ommmmmm

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    Quote Originally Posted by justanothercamgirl View Post
    Take your time! Remember even if you just sit in front of your makeup today and don't even get around to putting on a single drop of it then today is still a small victory over yesterday.
    Well, I got back from my walk, fell asleep for 3 hours and ended up on the phone to NHS111 because I was getting really strong urges to self harm. They arranged for a doctor to call me back, and I lied and said I was feeling better. I bought razors and took them apart. Didn't do it in the end because last time scared me so much and I couldn't think of a way to hide the aftermath if I ever do get back on cam...

    I'm going to try again today to stream. Even for 30 minutes. I'll be on AW, so might opt out of free chat. I'll sit and play games, and if I get a booking then great, and if not at least I logged in.

    I hope yesterday went better for you in the end than it did for me JAC!
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    Quote Originally Posted by MiaFaye View Post
    I hope yesterday went better for you in the end than it did for me JAC!
    Sounds like you had one heck of a day. <3

    I made it online for 30 minutes and then gave up because I was just way to tired.

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