
Originally Posted by
squirtbbw
So, I just found stripperweb recently and am so glad I did. A little about me: I am 46, live with roommates, and have Multiple Sclerosis. I was diagnosed with this blasted disease in 2008, but as some of you may know...it takes time to diagnose and my symptoms started showing up in late 2006. I was depressed...screaming "why me?" and locking myself away. I even did some ridiculous treatments in hopes of never having to go through a relapse again and in turn caused some irreversible damage to myself. The fact is, when you are desperate, you will do anything to solve that problem. Although, what I realized in the long run was that the disease was becoming my life. I wasn't me anymore, I was my diagnosis.
One of the reasons I decided to start camming was the MS just did not allow me to keep a "regular job". The relapses are unpredictable and impact my ability to get around. I did really well on MFC, in the beginning. Sure, I was naive and listened to a lot of different people when I shouldn't have. Hell, I actually did free shows in my first month of camming in the hopes of drumming up business. Then, I realized that they weren't going to buy the "milk" if I was giving it away for free. (I would have sworn my mother said something along these lines...but I digress. LOL) I did learn from my mistakes, however and was making enough to "live". Then, I relapsed and couldn't cam....the result was mind numbing. When I returned, my cam score had dropped to almost non existent. HOWEVER, I found this site and started employing some of the things I have learned and I am slowly eeking it back up there.
So, I decided to take charge. I am still kicking, fighting, and scratching my way through life because I am too fucking stubborn to let this infernal disease take away my joy. Are some days harder than others? Oh you bet ya. But, I am not giving up.
I guess I wrote a novel, but you ladies inspire me. I hope all of you are having a good day!
Hugs
Debbi
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