Joining in here - this thread has been great for helping me feel not so alone and frustrated, thank you ladies! Right now struggling with fatigue and pain from endo and anxiety on top of it. Went for a walk and wiped myself out x.x Trying to stay motivated and find the energy to work and also take care of my body, but it really is hard.
I have Sjögren's, Lupus and rheumatoid arthritis. Even though I finally finished my studies now, I am not able to do a full time job. I am pretty much disabled in the morning because my fingers and wrists are stiff and pailful. So I start camming around lunchtime. Sometimes it's easy business, sometimes it's really hard and sometimes impossible because of recurring tendosynovitis. I still love that I can work from home. It is a lot less stressful than most other jobs![]()


^I also have rheumatoid arthritis, and the added problem of type 1 diabetes. I'm looking into better times of the day/evening to cam because morning are impossible. Trying to work around insulin doses and meal times are a bit of a challenge, but I still refuse to give up. My biggest fear is having an insulin reaction in the middle of a cam show! Hopefully, I can come up with healthier snack ideas in between shows.





Hey!.. My son has Type 1 Diabetes he has had it for 10 yrs now he is 20 yrs old.. and we are working with an HTMA Practitioner who says it's caused from heavy metals blocking the beta cells that make insulin.. so I am hopeful.. tried a lot of things willy nilly over the years... he has been on a custom protocol for almost 2 weeks now.. and his blood sugars are mostly in the normal range or lower ..so I am hoping!.. but it hasn't been very long now though.. he said this can happen from heavy metals your mother passes down to you at birth or vaccines or just about anything there is heavy metals.. I believe it.. that's the same reason why we see Autism....










Considering this post is about 3 weeks old hopefully u found ur grove but if not - about 2 months ago i got back into camming after about a year absence. I kinda eased myself back into just going on one day here and there testing times and stuff until i found something that worked and i plan my day to be on cam at that time tuesday thru saturday. SM is not my main egg so i dont plan on making a certain amount that day nor do i have an hourly goal. i just log on do my thing and log off when i dont feel like being on anymore because it slowed down or my body starts to hurt . My weight has gotten WAY out of control during the past year i lived with my now x from stress and overeating and eating shitty foods i went from being 230 to 300 :< so im a little less nimble then i use to me and my stamina for cam has down significantly i normally stop after 3-4 hours. I'm in a lot better mood when im on now. I recently realized that i probably had a serotonin and dopamine deficiency witch explained a lot of the problems i have in my personal life an work life . i was always tired and had no energy i had brain fog - i always felt a part of my mind wasnt really "here" if that makes sense. I had no motivation and focus to the things i wanted to do or at the least do the things that i needed to do to do what i wanted to do and nothing really excited me . Taking MDMA really helped all of these issues but I dont think its healthy for my body or bank account to take it once a week so Ive been on 5 htp and L Tryosine for about a week now and I'm noticing a dramatic improvement. 5 HTP is what gets converted into serotonin in the body and l tyrosine convers into l dopa witch converts into dopamine but l dopa has a lot of nasty side effects so i was scared to take it and my friend who helped me out with all this suggested i take the l tyrosine . I'm in ALOT better mood im more productive im less jittery and anxious all the time. I'm hopeful about my feature and im more creative and i feel my brains a bit sharper.



I'm having some issues. I feel so guilty, but I'm sticking with PSO right now and not camming for a little bit. I'm in a bad way mentally, in spite of having my meds back, and I've finally given in. I'm looking to speak with a lawyer about appealing my declined disability case. I apparently can't handle life and, honestly, I'm devastated by it.
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I know what you mean ive been there before . I'm very sociably awkward simply because i honestly dont know how to act in normal social settings for the most part due to my upbringing witch also gave me mental and emotional issues too. I've come a long in the past 3.5 years since i left my hometown and got away for a bit. I think I've gotten to the point now where i've just accepted the fact im a bit of a weirdo and very aloof. I like the person i am now tho it took me 29 years but better late then never right ? have you tired counselling ? i'm guessing ur situation is a lot like mine - dramatic/shitting upbraiding and now you just dont know how to cope and "adult" as they say ?





Im so sorry to read this. Its really hard to deal with any kind of mental issues. Im having some issues right now with my Hashimotos and its making my anxiety and panic attacks insane. You can get through this, sometimes all we have is hope. Please let me know if you ever want to talk, I would love to listen





Does anyone else on here have a thyroid issue or Hashimotos? It would be nice to get some advice on it since its somewhat new to me.
I'm feeling really nauseated for some ;/





im pretty sure i have an under active thyroid and or a severe intolerance to gluten only real advice ive read for both is try to eat cleaner/ more natural and cut as many processed foods ESPECIALLY PROCESSED CARBS out of ur normal diet exercise on the reg (witch i assume you do now anyway) Taichi yoga mediation something to help you cope and manage the anxiety. I suffered anxiety and PTSD for many years until about a year ago its a vicious hamster wheel of coping and reacting and making stupid choices under stress witch causes more problems more stress ......


That's awesome to hear; I'm glad things are looking better for your son. I never thought about seeking help from an HTMA practitioner, but it's certainly a very interesting concept and something I'm willing to try at this point.
For Avalon_Rose: So sorry you're going through this. I don't know you, but can relate to your mental pain. Been through a couple of breakdowns in the past and I'm not ashamed to admit it. A lot of days I'll wake up still feeling hopeless even with medication. If you ever feel like talking, I'll be glad to listen.



Thank you for the replies.
@ Sn0wy, the only 'bad' part about my upbringing was I was teased pretty mercilessly as a child and into High School. I have a good family and didn't really experience 'trauma' as a kid ... this compounds my guilt because, for all intents and purposes, I should really be 'just fine' and have no problems whatsoever.
@Jane, thank you for your kind words, I appreciate the offer. I'm holding on to something, but I don't know what it is right now.
@heavymetal, thank you - I know that meds aren't a total game changer all the time, I'm still constantly surprised how miserable you can still feel while on them. So I try to incorporate therapy, too.
I dunno if I've just slipped so far that I'm having a hard time managing by myself or what. So taking little baby steps to get that help and hope I end up coming out on the other side.
Thanks for the kind words, they're really appreciated.
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I definitely find a routine helps and even getting out once a day. whether it's going to a park or walking 3 or 4 blocks, being even slightly active helps a lot for me. I also try to make a list of things I need to do other than cam and break them up throughout the day. be it do laundry, get dinner in the crock pot, make some tea, get groceries, watch the news, read a couple chapters of a book before bed, ect. I just try to have as normal a life as I can for being a semi shut in due to the job.
Oh and vitamins! take all of your vitamins.





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I just started going through a copper dump again.. since yesterday.. I just feel so bla today.. and down and depressed and I don't want to do some of these shows these guys are asking for today.. uggh.. I have been just logging out when I get sick of it.. I know it's sunday and I need this money .. it's a good day.. but it's very difficult for me today.. I did a coffee enema which gave me a boost of feeling good cuz I was starting to want to cry.. uggh..





Ladies, if anyone can relate pls, any of u have issues with painful arms? Like from the elbow down my lower arm and hands hurt soo much sometimes, i am not sure if it's the rheuma issue or is from typing, it hurts especially in the cold season and sometimes is soo bad it wakes me up from sleep.
Might be a combination of the two but i am curious if ur hands/lower arm hurts for some of you too. Ty!





What do you mean painful arms? burning? muscle aches like you lifted something heavy? I have been experiencing that and my elbow hurts in one arm.. I cannot turn my arm out when you hold straight out.. I think it has something to do with my TSH ..(thyroid) being 4.79 which is higher than normal.. I am back on my thyroid glandular til the pain goes away.. I am doing Mineral balancing so I am not exactly supposed to be taking glandulars but being in pain aint happening.. and yesterday my wrist was hurting.. can't work being so miserable... Have you checked your thyroid? ..
Try taking some calcium/magnesium.. extra doses til it goes away.. all these lil issues are from mineral deficiencies.. .. My mineral practitioner told me my TSH went up a lot because I am mineral balancing and it will go back down and maybe even go higher .. uggh.. it sucks.. I have been mineral balancing for over 7 months now and not cured yet.. lmao





Ty for answering A.C xx
Not burning but hurting 'deep inside', maybe u read in my posts i have arthritis in my spine and i bet it's developing on other bones too, i also have tyro issues and am under treatment for 2 years now, i take eutyrox, calcium, vitamin D & iron as i deal with anemia too cause of very heavy flows.
I dont want more pills than i take already but i wish to treat this pain on my hands with a creme or gel or something, to treat it locally and not put too much stress on my liver to process even more pills. I always forget to ask my doctor what to do about my arms/hands but i also type a lot so typing might aggravate the issue...





Are you taking any calcium supplements? Once I was taking a magnesium supplement that had calcium added to it and out of nowhere I started getting really painful aches from my elbows down. I thought it was from my dysfunctional computer habits because they can give me wrist cramps but this was BAD. I actually ended up calling the supplement company's customer service and asked if my symptoms could be from what I was taking(which was this: https://www.amazon.com/Natural-Vital...m+plus+calcium) and they said yes. Apparently if you are supplementing with too much calcium it can end up in your bloodstream or something and cause what I was experiencing. I stopped taking it and my issues completely disappeared.





^^^ Sorry for my late comment here, i missed to read ur answer, thank you for input xx, yes i take calcium for a few months now but i cant tell if my issue is calcium related cause my hands hurt for years now when i was not taking calcium; but it does not hurt all the time, now & then i get a severe pain episode and then it's going away for a while and returns by surprise and not sure what causes the next episode. Maybe weather change + Rheuma + typing?! Too many variables here that's why i am confused. ty xx






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