I'm temporarily a sick girl camming... I have a pretty painful UTIBut this is my only source of income at the moment, and I'm abroad, so... meh
The hard work here makes me want to give everyone a big pat on the back <3





I'm temporarily a sick girl camming... I have a pretty painful UTIBut this is my only source of income at the moment, and I'm abroad, so... meh
The hard work here makes me want to give everyone a big pat on the back <3
I'm so glad I found this thread. I have severe 24/7 chronic back, spine, and wrist pain due to arthritis. I also suffer from depression, anxiety and BPD. I'm a single mom of my son whom has Autism and ADHD. I can't wait to read all your responses. Thank you for starting this thread!![]()
You can do texting while you're sick. Or phone sex.
I know exactly what you're talking about. The anxiety/money issues making you anxious to get on cam but you know you absolutely need to get on cam which makes the anxiety worse...endless cycle. We just have to take care of our mental health as much as possible and work as much as we can on better days. You can do it. Hang in there. Hugs.
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Wow. I've been there SO many times. Recently, too. I've woken up and been pissed off that I woke up. I prayed that I'd die in my sleep. But I have to keep going for my son. He's my world and I'm his. Living daily with severe mental and physical pain, going through divorce, being a single mom with an autistic child who hits and has meltdowns daily, being broke, my bf cheating on me, etc really took a toll on me. But I'm FINALLY in a motivated, positive mindset and I'm going to make a better life for myself and son. I have to. I'm sick and tired of being broke and depressed. I left my lying cheating ex bf. I'm reading law of attraction books and saying positive affirmations daily. It's really helping! I'm not going to live in my pity party anymore. Life's too short and there's too much success and happiness out there waiting for us.
Omg lol I also have DDD, spinal arthritis and scoliosis since elementary school. I'm a mom, too. We have a lot in common. Have you seen those tens unit commercials where they're selling them at drugstores now? My heating pad also helps a little and I walk with a cane for the past 2 years. I'm only 31 :/ just going to get worse and worse.
I know this is old but I took topamax for a long time and my hair is still falling out in clumps.It was literally snapping off and falling out while on the drug and I lost 50lbs which I needed to lose so I'm happy about that. But ya don't take it if you can't lose any weight or stand to lose hair.



I finally got settled into my new house ( We had to move unexpected) and im going back to work tomorrow night, im gonna try 2 hours a day for at least 6 days a week
Brand New to camming and still learning..but man am I glad I found this site. I suffer from , Chronic Back, Neck and Hip Pain, PTSD, Dissociation, Dissociative Amnesia, Depression and Severe Anxiety. These make it hard to keep a regular job in the real world, camming has made it okay. I have a question though; do any of you ever tell your clients or chat rooms that you deal with these things? Has it been beneficial or a baddddd choice?
I just wanted to share some medical breakthrough news with you. It has just been proven that chronic fatigue is a real disease that is brought on by faulty cell receptor in immune cells. Immune disorders come in many types so this is happy news for people with 'un-labeled' disorders that have been subjected to people telling them over and over again that 'they aren't trying hard enough' and that 'it is only in their head'.
The latest treatment options that they have been looking into are using cancer drugs to treat it. Can you imagine? In order to treat you they have to wipe out nearly all of a patient's B-cells just like they do with cancer.
If you are undiagnosed with such symptoms as intolerance to exercise, joint pain/muscle pain and unrelenting stomach issues, take heart.
It will take time, but this new understanding of how things can go wrong with the human immune system will change our knowledge of modern medicine as we know it.





I have been sick with a flu all week. I was stressing about not being online, not making money, my placement dropping, etc.
But, mid-week, I started to feel less stressed. Thank goodness that I have a savings account for sick days. It's not often that I take a week off. The last time I did, I had the flu in 2015. I'm kind of glad that I took this time off. I needed a break. I was getting extremely burnt out.
You can have everything in life you want, if you will just help enough other people get what they want - Zig Ziglar
"Be thankful for the troubles of your job. They provide about half your income Robert R. Updegraff


I'm having a terrible time with panic attacks again. Literally sitting here shaking and scared shitless. I'm not panicking about camming, but other things happening in life. It makes it so hard to log in and cam when these attacks come on. I don't know what to do about them anymore. I've tried everything from medication to counseling and nothing helps.


Thanks, Marina. I notice that they are worse during the daytime and usually financial/family/health issues bring it on. I feel mentally paralyzed when this happens. My heart rate goes up to 120, I curl up in a ball, and just wait until it's over. Sometimes they last a couple of hours though, which really sucks. It's the worst feeling in the world to have this much fear.
In my experience, I've never been able to do anything to stop having panic attacks but I have learned a few things about living around them. Everyone experiences panic attacks in different ways so you have to look into what your main symptoms to do something to lesson the panic.
Does it manifest in the feeling of excess energy that you need to run away? Then do some sort of exercise to try to get the excess energy out like running in place like a maniac.
Does it manifest with rumination type thinking? Then do something to help get you out of your head like singing to yourself about every action you are currently doing or distracting yourself by saying out loud a list of square root numbers.
Since everyone's panic symptoms is different then everyone's solution to living around them will also be different. The only generalized piece of advice I can give you is not to let yourself feel badly or guilty about the fact that you do have panic attacks since that is going to only make the situation worse. Yes, I know this is SO much easier said than done and I struggle with it all the time but you have to be gentle and supportive with yourself because being mean to yourself and beating yourself up about the fact that you have panic attacks in the first place doesn't make them any easier to deal with. <3

BPD as in borderline personality or bipolar? I have the former (borderline) and it's a struggle.
You definitely sound like you're dealing with burnout hun. I know there's not much I can do but I will say I am in a tough spot myself right now and I know it's hard. Are you able to see a therapist right now at all? You don't need to tell them what you do for a career but you can just vent maybe. Or if you want to vent you can PM me. I'm new to this forum but I've read it for a while.
Even if you have a journal of some sort whether is online, on paper, notes on your phone, etc. Just write down all of your feelings , all of them. Vent your heart out. Just get it all out. Hell post here or PM me. It's nowhere near a cure but it's therapeutic to just vent and let everything that has been bothering you out.
In regards to your bf, are you able to talk to him about it? I know that it's a big thing in a relationship but it doesn't have to be permanent ya know? You're not damaged or broken. You can work through this.
I lost all of the message I type out to you pretty much. Grrrr. I will try to rewrite it later- I'm sorrry sweetheart.
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