I had an epiphany yesterday.
I moved out of my parent's house four months ago with my son. I'm slowly realizing that my income is not sustainable for my lifestyle (gas/tolls from commuting 45 minutes to work each way, daycare costs, rent, car insurance, repairs, etc.) My life has been very hard these past few months, and I feel like I've brought the stress upon myself, unnecessarily. Things are so bad right now that I have to go to the food pantry today because I'm running out of things to feed my son, and I don't know how I'm going to get to work this week because I only have a quarter tank of gas left in my car, and I don't get paid until next Friday.
My mind keeps going back to dancing, and I feel like being a successful dancer would aid in solving the majority of my financial problems. More than that, I've been wanting to dance since the age of 18 (I've been on this site since 2005!), and even though I keep psyching myself out, self-sabotaging, and failing at dancing, I keep coming back to it. I know I don't want to be a career dancer, but when it comes down to it, I've been broke/struggling for years. The potential income from dancing might be enough to finally lift myself up to the point where I can be financially afloat, and start to work on my real dreams (being a personal chef, starting my own business).
So, I pretty much blew off work yesterday, and went to audition at the only local club I haven't been to yet. When I walked in, I immediately liked the atmosphere of the club. I was feeling confident because I've lost 15 pounds since my last audition, and my outfit looked great. The guy who auditioned me was really cool and laid back, and so I didn't feel nervous or intimidated. Dancing in an audition is always scary for me, but I had practiced all day and I'm feeling like I did good! The guy said, "All right, looks good to me!" and had me fill out my name/stage name, phone number, and availability on a sheet of paper. He said, "We'll call you. If we don't call in a week, you should call us", said goodbye, and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I'm not sure what to expect, or when I should anticipate a call, or whether I should look at some other clubs further away? The problem is that I woke up with the same problems I had yesterday--I still have to go to the food pantry, and I still have less than a quarter tank of gas, and I have work tomorrow. I was hoping to be hired on the spot and start right away so that I can make a little gas money at least.
What should I do?![]()



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