I have read the sticky thread about emotional and psychological wellbeing, but it has not helped me much. Lately I have been having problems with dancing in this way, and I need to talk about it and I need advice.
Its hard to explain, so sorry if i am vague. They aren't very bad, ive been having small nagging feelings that have started to bother me I worry about having to "lie" to customers in the small ways and if this is wrong. People also have the attitude sometimes like "well this is my charity and I'm giving you money for practically nothing." Of course I know that I'm doing a job, and putting in the work so it is not charity, unless you consider all jobs charity. Yet sometimes it lingers in the back of my mind still.
Problems like these give me an uneasy feeling, and possibly contribute to my frequent burnout. I just have a nagging feeling that there's something wrong about the job, not sexually but in other ways like my examples. I want to know what this is and how I can work through this and feel better about myself, because I love dancing and don't want to quit, and know I have to be looking at it wrong somehow. I never had these feelings before, i used to be very positive and confident about it. I've been working for two years so I don't know why I'm feeling this way. Other than that my life is going great so I don't think its because of something unrelated subconsciously bothering me.



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Of course that's a ridiculous idea, but I couldn't think of the words to explain to her how it works. The negative feelings are about my lack of defense, not that I actually hold those beliefs. Its been making me doubt myself though, like maybe since I can't explain it those types of things might be true, but it was just a moment of insecurity I think.



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