Hey All,
I wanted to ask how many of you genuinely get off on your own shows? And when I say "get off" I don't just mean doing a show because a custy asked for it, and you force yourself to cum for him. I mean getting off as a satisfying sexual experience that you enjoy for yourself and that you can also share with clients. How important is it for you to only perform shows that you genuinely enjoy or get pleasure from?
I'm asking because I think female pleasure is really important and overlooked in our culture. I know for so many of us, we are just trying to make $$$ so we try to find ways to fake when we're not into it, but I've found that neglecting my pleasure completely on cam has affected my sexuality off cam as well.
For me personally, I love doing certain shows, like striptease and oil shows-they make me feel really sexy and incorporate lots of creativity and sensuality. With certain custies who take their time and let me do my thing without so many demands for how my body should be positioned, trying to manipulate my fingers/body, etc. I can get lots of pleasure out of it, esp. if they are regulars and I'm used to them.
But sometimes, I do shows for other custies and feel weird/gross playing with myself (ESP. penetration-it takes 20-45 minutes on average for the vag to be fully aroused, yet we're shoving things inside within 2-5 min.) I often end up feeling numb in my pussy, pretending I'm getting so much pleasure meanwhile they're jerking off and cumming really hard. If I had sex in real life where a guy just gets off on me while I get nothing, I'd feel super violated. Sometimes the connection between the two takes a toll on me.
The general rule is to say no to things you don't want to do, but sometimes that boundary can be fuzzy or it can be challenging to say no when $$$ is involved.
I really want my shows to be a mutually positive experience and want to enjoy the work I do. I'm wondering if anyone can relate, has suggestions, etc.![]()



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but I get great pleasure when have nice chats !






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