Six years ago I made a bad choice. I knew I was wrong. There was no contesting it, I admitted to my guilt and took responsibility for it. As a result I was convicted for a misdemeanor and was sentenced to 1 year of probation and had several tasks to complete in order to meet the conditions of my probation. It was the most difficult, painful, and grueling experiences of my life and I will not be making that mistake or any other legal mistake again in the future. While I was on probation my mugshot, full name and home address started appearing on websites across the internet. I had my attorney send a cease and desist. As a result, over a dozen more mugshots, full name and home address popped up. What I have learned is the different site owners actually work together. When you take one mugshot, name and address down, another site will republish it.
Fast forward to today. I have been out of the system for 5 years. I have paid my dues. I have not been involved with any behavior that would get me on the wrong side of the law since. I applaud Google for being the ONLY site to completely remove my mugshot, name, and address from it's search engine, however, Yahoo, MSN, Bing and every other search engine out there continues to broadcast my past bad decision along with my name, address and mugshot. If I were to pay every scoundrel who wants $150 to remove my information from their sites I'd literally go into bankruptcy, as if getting arrested, spending 30 days in jail, paying an attorney, paying up front fines and fee's, monthly fines and fee's, missing work and satisfying all of the terms of my probation for an over all total of $250,000 in a single year hasn't already completed fucked my life. I lost my home, all of its contents, the mainstream job I had and the only thing I could salvage was my car. Mind you, it was a misdemeanor DUI. Again, I take responsibility for my bad decision but my question is, how long exactly, am I expected to continue to pay for this one bad decision 6 years ago?
I have not bothered to try and find mainstream work as a result because my online reputation is beyond repair nor have I tried to find a date because my online reputation is humiliating. I won't even apply to a condo or apartment complex because I feel so humiliated by it. When my name is entered into search engines a full page and a half of mugshots is what you see. I keep paying my dues over and over and over again. I am literally hiding from life in shame.
NOW with this new facial recognition software I feel like my life and my safety is in danger. If it's not bad enough these sites are keeping me on food stamps and living a torturous life as a cam model because it's the only employment I can find, I will never find a date (and his family) who wont shun me for my past mistake, but now, every stalker and potential rapist and murderer has access to me!
Does anyone know if there is any legislation or ANYTHING I can hold on to?? I'm honestly feeling like my life is over and am running out of hope. I can't live this way anymore. I just can't. Broken and isolated. Literally, tears streaming down my face as I write this. My life is so broken. Before you say to me, "Airrrie you are over reacting" or "you shouldn't have made a bad decision to begin with", know that I already feel very broken, shamed and humiliated by this. I feel very tortured and afraid.



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