I'm not sure if this is the right subject for this forum so mod gods feel free to move if necessary. I feel like crying just typing this but here goes. I was/am a cam girl. But currently I'm not making any money because my confidence is gone. I started camming when I was 26 and a size 14. But I was diagnosed as bipolar at 28. Since then I've gone from a 13/14 to barely squeezing into my 18/20 clothes. Once I was diagnosed I've been unmotivated to enjoy life. I sleep all day, don't exercise any more... Don't...... Anything ! I just don't! Techniquely I'm not depressed. I have hope of better days and every so often I'll get my fat ass up and act human for a week or so. I've tryied a few things like having a gym partner (I just pissed her off), buying different Beachbody workout programs ($ thrown away), spa treatments. My self esteem is on zilch. I made a few ads recently and have over 20 guys waiting for me whenever I sign on but the idea of getting nude Infront of someone like this is turning into a phobia. It maybe time for me to stop camming after all I'll be 31 next month but I still need to find the will to live and not just survive. Any suggestions?



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