Hello to all of my beautiful long lost bbies. I am sorry to come here under these circumstances after all of this time. My webcam and toys have literally collected dust. I just really need some advice..it is complicated.
I have had my ups and downs with camming and have been in the business since I was 18. I was determined to stop camming in the last few years, I had become burnt out and passionless. I was also in a very dark depression and it got ugly.
I ventured out in 2012 and got a job at a gentlemens club serving cocktails, and worked as a cocktail server for about a year. The club then shut down. I got back into camming in Feb 2013. I missed it and the freedom. Having a normal job and being back in that environment was too much for me to bear. I am not against stripping and have been there, but it was much too much. I am also a recovering alcoholic so that had a little to do with it. I did not have a drop to drink and did well, I just did not have the emotional strength to deal.
So I cammed thru 2013. In December 2013, my old manager from the club called me and asked if I was interested in working at a new club that had opened that he was managing. He offered me a doorgirl job, I jumped on it. A few months later, I received another job offer at a Casino here. I took the casino job. It had its pros and cons, the money was good. I had to maintain sales goals, and I did well with it for the first few months. Last month, not so good, but I never imagined they would let me go. They let me go yesterday, in a very shady fashion. I showed up ready to work and just attended a meeting on my day off. When I got there, there was another girl there to work and I was asked to go to the back office. Right then I knew. I have been a good employee and gave it my best, but deep down, I was unhappy. I never had a problem in a sales job like this, never had a problem making my goals camming, etc, so it came as a shock to me that this was such a struggle and that I was not successful maintaining my sales goals. I am sad but it is what it is. I have been looking for a new job and was not happy.
Sorry I am just rambling now, as I usually do lol. Other then becoming this passionless burnt out camgirl, there was another reason why I left camming. It is complicated but lets just say in 2012 I had a family to feed and did not save money on the side for taxes. I owe the IRS a decent chunk of money. I figured if I stayed camming, I would just be digging a deeper hole. When I returned to camming in 2013, I paid off a lot of the debt, but because I was camming over 2013, owed the IRS more money. Since I worked a normal job as an employee, it was not as much, but I am still paying off the debt.
I miss camming so much and the 9-5 life crushes my soul to the extreme. I am in a very dark depression and I can't see a way out. I want to return to camming. The devil inside says do it, the angel says NO it will make it worse. My thinking tells me, if I do it and save 50% I can pay off the tax debt, and also save money to pay estimated quarterly, it will be difficult, but it can be done. I am also very tenacious, and I feel like I have given up on my camming career because of the debt, and I should not let that stop me. But realistically, becoming an employee was the only way to stop racking up more debt with the IRS. Since I have worked since December of 2013, I keep telling myself if I got back into it, for the year 2014 I would break even, and any refund I would have would go towards my IRS debt. I have also been paying an additional amount per week as an employee, so although my checks have been small, it will help out in the longrun.
I admit I am scared and I do not know which step I am going to take next, but I do know this: I need to make money. I have been looking for a job for the past month and after hours upon hours of applications, a minimal response. I have went on so many interviews I cannot keep count and I feel they have gone well, been confident that I have had the job, but then no reply/no call back/no answer to my messages.
I just need any advice I can get. Have any of you been in debt with the IRS? Have you remained camming thru it? Is there any form of releif? I am considering doing an offer in compromise. There are options but my head is spinning.
I just feel like I have given up on myself and my career in camming. I have spent hours upon hours last night and today filling out more applications, etc. All of these hours I could have been on cam at least making some money. Some money is better then no money at all. Working as an independent contractor, better then no job at all. I feel so much better just letting some of this out. Hope to hear back from some of you soon. I hope all of you have been doing well. The industry really is fascinating to me, after all of this time I see some of the same faces and screennames. After all of this time, I could pick up where I left off lol. I will certainly have alot of revamping to do but it will be better then filling out all of these damn online applications lol. TY BBIES!



. I got back into camming in Feb 2013. I missed it and the freedom. Having a normal job and being back in that environment was too much for me to bear. I am not against stripping and have been there, but it was much too much. I am also a recovering alcoholic so that had a little to do with it. I did not have a drop to drink and did well, I just did not have the emotional strength to deal.
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