I've been going out with this amazing girl for nearly 14 months now. She's beautiful, funny, sweet and our minds are on such a wavelength sometimes it makes me think we were made for each other. She really has given me some of the most incredible, blissful moments of my entire existence.
She's a very anxious, sometimes depressed person. I question bipolar sometimes because of her mood swings. She recently decided she wanted to become a camgirl, to make some extra money for us because we're in such dire financial straits. She's tried so hard to get a job in the past but with no luck at all, so I've always been the breadwinner, and I'm between jobs right now. I've helped her take loads of sexy photos of her and upload them to her site. She charges a small amount for any kind of nudity, so I could justify it by saying it's not as bad as the girls who show everything for free. I guess I should just go ahead and list, to my opinion, the pros and cons of this situation. Here goes.
Pros:
- Boosts her confidence
- Boosts her self-esteem
- Lessens her anxiety/depression
- Increases her sex drive (since she started, we've had some of the most incredibly kinky sex ever, I've never had orgasms as explosively powerful as the ones she's given me lately, and we're incredibly sexually compatible anyway)
- I get to take loads of sexy pictures of her and occasionally videos of us having sex which turns me on a fuck ton (especially blowjob videos..)
- I have no fear of her cheating on me because she uses a persona, all the people she talks to are miles and miles away and she refuses to give out her real name or location
- Happenings in our town have resulted in her being a bit of a social reject, much like myself, and this gives her some form of social life
- It is kind of entertaining when I get to see the bizarre messages some of these freaks send her
Cons:
- She can behave secretively sometimes. She speaks to people she wants to lure into her chatroom through a smartphone messenger and has snatched her phone away from me in the past, even though I've looked through it while she's been asleep or whatever (curiosity and a feeling I have a right to know) and there's really nothing bad in there.
- Whenever I voice a concern, she flies off the handle asking me why I'm being so ridiculous and why I'm trying to ruin this for her, causing massive arguments.
- I really, really do not like the amount of men that send her messages calling her 'baby' and the like (although that's not her fault). She's had a few professing their love to her although she usually ends up getting creeped out and blocks them.
- Mostly, it feels like she's not all mine anymore because anybody with a few dollars floating about and an internet connection can get a look at her practically naked body.
I really don't know what to think guys. Following past arguments about this subject she's insisted she'd stop as her relationship is more important, but I've always ended up begging her not to as I can see how it's good for her (and for us) in a number of ways. I know she loves me, her eyes, her body language and the way she is with me says it all. And I feel more strongly for her than I've ever felt for anyone or anything. Is it a case of this only being a problem if I let it bother me or get to me or could it genuinely become a serious issue? I very, very strongly doubt the possibility of her running away with some guy from a website because we're living together in a committed relationship. It's just.. I dunno. Do I really have anything to be worried about or am I just being a paranoid freak who should let her get on with what she wants to do and not add additional stress and hassle?


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