This year I moved from Montreal to Italy to live with my boyfriend, then broke up with him and moved from Italy back to my hometown of Vancouver. Since I've been back, I've found a really good club to work at, but I have NO motivation to go in - and when I do find the motivation, I can't work without drinking! I used to be the queen of sober shifts, and while I didn't always feel like going in, I did anyways. Now, working even one shift a week feels like a huge effort for me.
It's not like I don't need the money - I'm going travelling in Asia next year and then moving to New Zealand. I have clear goals of how much I need and I know exactly what I want to do. But in the hours before I have a shift, those things don't seem to matter to me at all! I just want to stay home.
I've wanted to try escorting for a long time, so I met with an agency and am starting this week. I think the change of pace will be good for me. But I don't want to stop dancing completely - I like stripping and I have good friends at the club I work at here.
I've had bouts of depression before, bad ones, and this doesn't feel the same - I'm happy in my day to day life, I'm spending time with my friends that I haven't seen in years, and I'm really excited about the direction my life is going. It's specifically a lack of motivation around working that I can't seem to conquer. So I guess my question for the ladies who have been through the same thing is: how did you get back in action? How did you start getting your motivation again?
Thanks girls!



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