So I recently started dancing and both my parents know and overall, they are very supportive. However, my mum is irritating the crap out of me and lately, not so supportive! She keeps on warning me about the consequences of my job and how society is judgemental and newsflash - I already knew that shit and quite frankly, I don't give a single fuck what people think of me. I keep telling her otherwise but she is just not listening to me and I am sick of trying to explain why I'm doing this job or justify my reasons - when I would otherwise not be asked if I was doing a "normal" job.
When I was working as a retail assistant and hated it, felt anxious and depressed about going in, why was nobody encouraging me to quit my job? Some lawyers, waiters etc are miserable and hate their job, yet they are never pushed to justify it with some grand explanation of their choice. I never had to justify my shitty retail job and now with this, there is so much pressure to justify it with my mum and give her a reason, which I have and she does not seem to be listening. I'm happy I've told her because I know she doesn't morally have a problem with it, but she's just getting annoying now and it's exhausting and I am simply being repetitive about every damn thing she asks. I just don't want to talk about it anymore. It's doing more damage than good and just reinforcing further stigma surrounding this job. All these questions are upsetting and I am under a lot of pressure to have to show I always enjoy this job, when I know there will be crappy nights - just like any other job. She may care what people think - but that is her problem and not mine.
I'll be moving out in a month thankfully, so I will be stripping in peace very soon!
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