So Friday night I go to this Fall Festival at my little brothers school. There's food, sodas, games and music. It's a good turn out. I see lots of friends and neighbors I've know since I was a kid. I say hello to people I haven't seen in awhile, but I manage a quick conversion with everyone who says hello. Then I see someone I did not expect to see. A guy I had a thing for a while back. He spots, comes over and he literally pulls me off to the side to talk to me. It's obvious he's glad to see me and and I'm really glad to see him. He looks really good too. Dammit! He starts the small talk and my mind goes completely blank. I can't think of any small talk to save my life. Nothing except "how's school", "how's the family" and that takes about 2 minutes. Then nothing. Awkward silence. I'm trying to stay calm of the outside, but on the inside I'm dying. He's looking at me and smiling and I've got nothing. He sees a mutual friend and politely excuses himself. Fuck! I blew it! I'm kicking myself!! As "Escort Ava", I can totally handle this, but as myself I'm a stuttering idiot. What's wrong with me?!!



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