
Originally Posted by
SexyLittleThing
I need your help, girls. So, please, bare with me.
I was doing just fine on SM since I started two and a half years ago. I managed to move in my own aparment, start a normal life, etc. I had rough times, but I was always make money for food, money for the aparment and everything I needed and couldn't live without.
Since last week everything went downhill for me. I am crying almost every day since that day and I just can't stop crying because I know I will have to move back with my parents and live with them and be jobless for... I don't know how long. And I will need to drop out of college.
I don't know why and how but I just stopped making money. ANY money. Since last week - I made 0 dollars in total. I don't know why - I am not doing anything I wasn't doing before, I am just - me, like I've been for all this time. Nothing has changed - I look nice, flirty, smile, talk to custies and everything... But no one is taking me private. At all. Less and less guys are talking to me even. And I just don't know why. I can't seem to make ANY money, let alone enough money to get me throught the month. And I can't seem to find a reason why is that so. I really don't want to go back home and live with my parents. The thought of that devastes me and makes me cry just by thinking about it.
I need any advice I can get from you... I need a reason why this is happening to me right now. Right now when everything in my life is in order and I was finally happy. I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't stop thinking about it... And my bf isn't being helpfull at all - he blames it all on me and says that I should've worked harder when I was making good money... It devastest me, because I don't have anyone to talk to... No one to conffess to, or ask for any help.
In no time - I'll ran out of all my money, I will not have anything to eat or any money for gas even. It's really critical... And I just need 200 dollars to get me throught the month and I can't even get that. I don't know what to do, girls. I can't stop crying, I have panick attacks, I can't go out of the house and act normal... I just... Can't. It's so tough and hard... My life is falling apart bit by bit and I can't do anything to stop it. I can just watch and cry.
I promised myself I would never go back home... And now, after a year of living on my own... I will have to...
Why is this happening to me? What can I do to change it? Please, anyone, please... I need your help. It's gotten to the point where I want to end my life and just give up.
I would be so grateful if anyone could help me...
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