Hello ladies
Well I realize this is my first post ever on the stripperweb forums, but I have been "lurking" on these forums for months now. This is a throw away account because my main account can easily be identified if someone searched my cam name, and this is sort a personal thing I would like to talk about but remain anonoymous. (I tried to search if I could post this quedtion on my main account and just make my post viewable to members, but I couldn't figure out if that was possible)
Anywho, I am a cam girl and have been for about 3 months.
My ex boyfriend of 10 months tried to be okay with it for a long time but finally couldn't take it anymore. It was a horrible way that he found out too.. he went through my phone. (Yes I immensly regret not telling him first, I had planned too, but was looking for the right time.. he sort of beat me to the punch.) Anyway, I would always tell him I would stop, then he would say "no I want you to do what you want to do" then he would change his mind, that went on for a while before finally he had enough. Finally he persuaded me into feeling like I should stop, so I told him I would, but I didn't because I needed the extra money and frankly, I didn't really feel like he had the right to tell me what I can and can't do as an independent woman, and him, as a man that still lives with his mother. (Also he is 4 years older than me).
We broke it off when he found out I was doing it again. I felt sad, and like a liar, I felt like I let camming split us up. But again, I was doing what was best for myself.
So I figured it was for the best and have been trying to slowly move on.. but in the back of my mind I keep thinking, how could I do that to someone who loved me so much? He would have literally did anything for me and I basically sh*t on his feelings by continuing to do something he absolutely was disgusted by.
I'm 19, I go to college, and also have two other jobs and live on my own. I like camming because well, I love money! Haha but he would always say "It's not like you NEED the money.." And that was pretty accurate, but it was the thought that I would be able to earn an unlimited earning potential and up my lifestyle by camming that made it impossible for me to stop. I also look at camming as an outlet, and a way for me to show my sexy and flirty side without guys getting the wrong idea (and me getting paid for it).
In return, he thought I loved attention and fed off compliments from horny men online.
It was never about that.
I don't know what I'm saying right now and I really don't even know the point to my story but I guess I just want to know that not all men will think of camming as such a MAJOR factor in a relationship. Yes it is a part of who I am, but it is not who I am entirely.
My ex left me feeling like I will never be respected, loved in the way he "loved" me, and just overall worthless because of camming.
Any advice, comments, kind words, even critisim, is appreciated right now. Just feeling sad.




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) but not all the time. At that is certainly not the "image" we give off. Thats the image THEY give us. I feel so strongly about this because its so hypocritical, and I can't stand a hypocrite.

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