New shift!! Day 7. I can't believe I worked for a week, so many hours. It's still little, comparing with other models who have been doing this for years and they don't come on forums to brag they worked hard for a week, lol

))) Looking at their stats, i often wonder: don't they have family problems, menstruation pain, an annoying bf, a headache, a nail broken, a pet (i see some posting pics with their pets, haha). Like... the discipline is insane. You really need mental discipline to leave everything at the door, the moment you press "broadcast". I can only feel like an idiot, wasting time of my life, procrastinating for minor problems that don't even matter now. Especially the most common one: "I don't feel like it... meh". Geez...
I remember in 2013-2014 when there was this top model on Jasmin, for 2 years in a row, that worked almost every day 14-16 hours shifts. On another forum someone was saying: "Ask any model to work 16 hours in ONE day, not two years and watch them calling an ambulance and a therapist after that day"

)))))))))))))))))). True True True.
I can't do 16 hours, but I noticed I can do 12 (16, occasionaly).
After 7 days I can tell the next:
- Idk who what posted on youtube anymore
- Idk what tea has been spilled this week and I didn't die for not knowing
- I don't know what happened in the country/ around the world since i haven't watched news.
- Malls and coffee shops still exist, they didn't dissapear
- My console and netflix are still there
- My bank account is $3000 bigger.
- I spent more time on cam, but mentally I feel better. News, twitter, gossips, covid, politics and other stuff were actually destroying me mentally and I wasn't in the mood to cam. One week without and I feel good. I might start to like living under a rock

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Let's see what happens today. Putting only 10 hours i think, because tomorow is friday and i wanna do 14 hours trough the weekend. Tuesday to friday i will be off, to move my shit into my new camming space, to clean it, to put everything in place, etc.
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