
Originally Posted by
Seductive_Brit
I'm just catching up on the thread and know I will really need it in the coming months. It's been super tough the past week, this was the first day since Friday I've been able to come on from which time I came down ill with a very sore throat and chesty cough (not covid luckily) and I am recovering but still pretty ill, this morning I wake up with what looks like an infection in one eye. The guy I was seeing and falling for effectively dumped me, whilst claiming only to want to slow things down and all after a sexual tryst that didn't go well, though admittedly we knew we weren't really compatible from the start. Doesn't stop your heart breaking knowing the facts though does it? Had bad things happening to friends who I've been very worried about and trying to help. Honestly feeling like a pile of poo with everything combined and THEN. For anyone from the UK filing for a full year of self employment for the first time. Did not realise they make you pay not just your taxes for the year but also your taxes for the next year in advance! I started panicking thinking there goes my savings because last year I was still in full time employment with this as a sidehustle for some of it. I was full on panicking but told myself to take a deep breath and I just found myself thinking of you amazing inspirational ladies and that the next few months I will have to cut down on expenses and STFO, but I CAN regain my savings and I WILL survive. I thought if these girls can do it so can I.
With me feeling physically ill and emotionally drained I am simply making myself do shifts of 30 minutes then taking breaks because that's all my body can handle at the minute, but I will keep doing so for as long as I can and keep the faith that I will get better and the luck will change for me and those loved ones in my life. First shift of 30 minutes earned zero but it's ok, I must persevere. There seems to be something weird going in the air, or something to do with energy, I don't know what, I can only hope it's the build up for a huge positive step forward. Wishing all you ladies luck and sending love.
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