LOL OH, I am 45 years old Dealt with that emotionally years ago & moved on.
The day they stop staring is the day I start worrying & getting more plastic surgery.
I don't care, so in my head with list of what I need to get & do daily. Really, don't notice. Other than that, I captailize off of it. I make money. I know when men or people want me for my boobs or me in general. Never want to be with a man who hates big boobs & on me to cover them up or get them reduced. Although I have seen that with other big boobed females who didn't do porn or cam.
You get what you put out in the world. I'm real, I don't bs or waste other people's time if it doesn't fit into my agenda or life goals. When I figure out that they are,then I cut them out of my life or use them to get what I want despite what they are after in me.
You work with the tools & info given at that time. If you went to the doctor & got those tools, the learning curve is a bit abrupt.
So, I know & have had friends doing what you are experiencing now. Know yourself, write down what you want out of life, dating, other people in order to keep your focus. Don't get caught up in their idea of who they think you are or want you to be. Men may treat me like a dumb big boob bimbo, but that is merely there wishful thinking so I will fall for their dumb ass lines & fuck them.
Male talent are the worst at playing that game on girls & ts in this biz. I simple use it to get the shoots I want, trade content to make money off of. I let them run their game. I make them think I am head over heels for them, well, actually several of them at a time. They do it to girls & ts constantly. What cracks me up, is when they figured out what I did. They can't even be mad about it. Currently have about 4 on the hook now, I never tell them who else I am fucking either. AS well, they don't tell me what other girls they are running game on. I would never figuratively slap another man in the face with another man's dick. LOL
Get what you need, keep your focus & stay true to yourself. Listen as a pre-op or even after, men will try to use you to fullfill their fantasy & get you emotionally involved while keeping you a secret from the world. Fine, use that to get $$$$ out of them & to be a bit emotionally removed.
People are going to think all kinds of thing about you, it is their fantasy.
You will NEVER get to see you as a REAL person, shed a many of tears over that in my life, but NO MORE! Figure out how to get what you need money wise out of them. Keep asking for more & more money & they will RUN AWAY! It is easy to get rid of them.
YOU know real when it is REAL. If you are a secret, hidden, a booty call, don't give you want you want emotionally, leaving you wanting more, feeling neglected & unloved, they YOU KNOW! It is all lies on their part, so suddenly become needy for cash & presents, see how fast they run. You have to demand it from them, the dates in public, being a REAL part of their daily lives, getting the respect & love you need. You can't let their fetishizing of you, their kinks make you feel less or NOT deserving of love.
I get EXPENSIVE real quick when they are just using me for a toy. Love yourself than you love another man.
Hope this helped.
Sam
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