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    So, I've had a love/hate relationship with camming. There are times I have been motivated to do it lately. Either when I get home from a bad night at the club, or when I can't sleep. I clean up my space, get set up, log on to the website, but I just can't start broadcasting! I don't know if it's my anxiety or what. The idea of actually HAVING to interact to make money has been freaking me out. I think it is because the club has been so bad lately. Like, it's busy in there, and I talk to everyone, but go home with shit money. Or it's dead in there and I make shit money. I don't know if the club is the reason my anxiety is getting so bad though. Because I am finally starting to make clips. They aren't great clips, but I think I need to just get in the groove after my 6 month break. The clips aren't great because I'm too freaked out to talk into the camera and interact.

    Anyway, I decided to have 1 less stressor, and cut out live broadcasts for now. I really like dancing, it gets me out of the house, and I have some other vanilla stuff running out of there, so it is still profitable. I just feel like I have been beating myself up for 'failing' (not logging in). I know it is easy enough to do, I just can't do it.

    Has anyone had this happen? Is it something you got ove after some time off, or did you take it as your hint to retire?

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    Default Re: I've thrown in the towel

    Might just be a phase. Hell, I only do indie shows for now cuz I can't handle freechat. As long as you make money, enjoy.
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    Yes last December was the worst month I've ever had and has me questioning everything I'm doing and now having anxiety before starting to go live. I didn't do anything special for the holidays or even spend 1/3 of what I normally do $$$ wise on gifts. I also worked the most hours I ever have in a month AND made the most clips. Maybe it's just poor timing - I hope so. I've been dipping into my savings to pay bills... it sucks. There are plenty of fetishes you can do for clips that don't involve speaking just look through the categories and get some ideas on things you are comfortable with and dedicate the time you would've been live to working on those? I'm sure you'll do great!

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    Maybe camming is just not right for you altogether and it's OKAY to know so. I believe that there is a purpose for everything and things don't just happen to you, they happen for you. You are blessed to have other revenues to bring in the money.
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    Every time i take a break, it is really hard to go back to live. If i had no cammed long time, i do not make myself money goals, my only goal is to go online and stay at least couple of hours to get over my anxiety. After that it goes easier

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    I guess I was feeling crap because there are soooo many successful models here. I go through the threads and wonder why I can't do it when it is so easy for everyone else. Camming has always been something I just can't get excited about. I am one of those people that believes in enjoying what you do for work. I think, especially with sexwork, that a genuine smile makes a difference. I am just simply not camgirl material.

    I'm starting to feel a bit better about my decision. I talked about it with my husband too. He thinks I could be better off for dropping it. Dancing has been slow, but steady (somehow) income for me. When I did clips last year, I slowly raised my profits each month. Now I can focus all my free time into clips instead of splitting it with cam. The more clips I do, the better they get. Things start to become more natural to me the more I do them. I just hope I can get back to where I was kind of quick.

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    There will be successful people in any profession you are in. That's just the way it is. Never compare your "worst" to someone else's best. This is why I don't read the camming rocks thread because it upsets me when I am not making money. I have no problem being honest about it.

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    I guess I was feeling crap because there are soooo many successful models here. I go through the threads and wonder why I can't do it when it is so easy for everyone else. Camming has always been something I just can't get excited about. I am one of those people that believes in enjoying what you do for work. I think, especially with sexwork, that a genuine smile makes a difference. I am just simply not camgirl material.

    I'm starting to feel a bit better about my decision. I talked about it with my husband too. He thinks I could be better off for dropping it. Dancing has been slow, but steady (somehow) income for me. When I did clips last year, I slowly raised my profits each month. Now I can focus all my free time into clips instead of splitting it with cam. The more clips I do, the better they get. Things start to become more natural to me the more I do them. I just hope I can get back to where I was kind of quick.
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    Don't beat yourself up about it. I can barely bring myself to log on anymore. I just can't handle the level of stupid. And I have even found myself rejecting shows that should be easy for me, just because I don't feel comfortable with it anymore. I've come to terms with it & decided to make it up in other ways. I consider it a benefit of being self-employed. As long as I'm responsible & can pay my bills, it doesn't matter where that income came from. And I have been making it more of a priority to ENJOY what I do. I make a lot of sacrifices for this business, and my happiness shouldn't be one of them. So I understand. If you don't feel comfortable with camming anymore then don't do it. But I can tell you that the longer you stay off cam the harder it is to get back on.

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    Default Re: I've thrown in the towel

    I have horrible depression at times and I find that I can't cam for a month or more at times and go through the similar motions as you. Just a guess, but it could be a little burnout and maybe a small break will do some good for you!

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    Quote Originally Posted by Aurora14 View Post
    I guess I was feeling crap because there are soooo many successful models here. I go through the threads and wonder why I can't do it when it is so easy for everyone else.
    I really think it only *seems* easy

    It looks that way from the outside but when I look at the effort and time that goes into it, not that easy really.

    With that said though, my dream this year is to get into indy camming and way more clips and phase out free chat completely. That's the cool thing about this industry - so many ways to make money that you can tailor to your own needs.


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    Default Re: I've thrown in the towel

    OP, I've been here before. Its super hard and I'm still not financially where I'd like to be. Having said that, I took a break and did "normal" stuff. When I came back to camming I was much happier and more motivated and things are picking up thankfully. Maybe just a break is what you need?

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